Venting Hope?

[OhhDrugzZ]

Hey, so i've been dealing with Depression an Trauma for around 5 Years now. Last time I've been in any kind of Treatment was in December 2024 and nothing has improved so far. I tried so hard to improve my life in every way I could think of over the last couple of years. Just to give you an Idea: I'm going to the Gym at least three time a week, I started eating healthy and I also go on a lot of walks to try and deal with my Dissociation. However, I still feel Lost/ Empty idk and while all of that is going on.. my Life is still slowly falling apart.

It kinda feels like every door is closing on me and I've got nowhere to run. I thought about CTB for a long time, but I'm stil not sure.

p.s: I'm writing this while being sleep deprived. I'm so sorry If this sound like gibberish, but I felt like I had to get this off my chest. And I just realised, I don't speak/write English as fluently as I used to.. Sorry :[

 

[no-hope-no-future]

I wish I could write as good as you do while sleep deprived. No need to apologise unfortunately not much hope as it's the same rubbish but just a different day.

 

[teflon997]

No, there's no light. I've been in various forms of treatment for the last decade, tried a ridiculous number of medications including antipsychs, mood stabilisers and antidepressants, been hospitalised countless times ...exercised, fasted, etc. Knowing what I know now it was all a waste of time. Every door can and does close...so I'd say is there's a lot to try in your situation before you lose hope but it can definitely happen...