Infection from Self-Harming

[SingleSeraph]

I think about CTB all the time but it was so overwhelming to me that I resorted to self-harm starting in February 1st. At first I used a screwdriver and scraped my thighs really hard but no blood would come out. After the 3rd time doing it I decided to buy some razor blades at my local grocery store. I was super nervous of how sharp the blade was so I cut myself minimally and with a little blood coming out. I realized that I felt so great during and afterwards so I started cutting myself a lot deeper and consistent.

Fast forward to yesterday I had my usual high during self harming and I cut my left thigh so much that I didn't realize that one of the cuts got infected. At work today I felt like I was going to pass out and had a pretty bad fever. I applied Neosporin and wrapped my thighs in bandages. I've self harmed 14 times now since February 1st. Should I worry about the infection spreading? I haven't noticed pus or any discoloration(only redness,a lot more pain and swelling).

I feel mad at myself for being reckless and not putting any bandages. I've been feeling so numb lately and I will feel much worse now that I can't harm myself for a bit. Any tips or guidance would be great for me.

 

[FreeBIRD]

If it gets worse you should see a doctor for antibiotic pills.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I think you should see a doctor for your infection.

 

[randomz]

I also think you should see a doctor asap.

 

[Carrotcake]

You can try for a short time with properly cleaning the wounds and taking anti-inflammatory drugs (nsaid's like ibuprofen) to see if it helps. But otherwise definitely go to a doctor because infected wounds can get really bad

 

[seafarer]

Go doctors and they will give you something to clean it up with and probably a script for antibiotics.

 

[CuddleHug]

If you have a fever, please go see a doctor ASAP.

If you're scared of what they might think, tell them it's to cope with anxiety, not because you want to CTB. You can also tell them that you're in good care of your mental health team and that you don't need to get hospitalized. Hopefully they'll believe you and just give you the care you need for the infection.

Hugs~

 

[seafarer]

Yeah I second that the doctors won't judge or give you a second thought they will just treat you wound. I have had a fem seel caused infections and they asked why it took me so long to come in.
Sorry for the mess of writing in I had just woke up and it was first thing I seen and obviously something I go thru myself so tired me plus auto correct =. More garbage posts than normal.