in confusion

[Harleyyy]

i want to ctb, and although i am not very close with my family in a conventional way but i love them alot and they love me, so much so that they take all my life decisions for me and it is exhausting however i know that they will face alot of trauma after i am gone. i am in a dilemma, i want to ctb asap, and the method i want to go for is sn but i cant order it because of the lockdown, one more option for me is hanging but whoever finds me will be scarred forever. its getting harder to live. i would be very grateful if you could suggest some other method or help me out here.

 

[Red]

Aw honey really sad you feel this way
Taking time is key, any final decision must be soooo carefully considered...
Lucky you to have a caring family, although a care that stifles can be just as damaging as none at all.
If you ever feel lonely n need a chat just pm me x

 

[Soul]

If I were concerned about how I'll look to whomever finds me, I'd try nitrogen or charcoal (although it's apparently not simple to get the charcoal method right).

I hope things work out the right way for you.

 

[Harleyyy]

Aw honey really sad you feel this way
Taking time is key, any final decision must be soooo carefully considered...
Lucky you to have a caring family, although a care that stifles can be just as damaging as none at all.
If you ever feel lonely n need a chat just pm me x

you are too sweet <3