timorousTruant
Azoidant
- Nov 18, 2022
- 100
I almost can't even stand to think about it. Imagining how destroyed people will be hurts so much.
There will be tears but noone would be surprised. For some it would be a relief of sorts.
I am worried how my parents and my grandma will react. Whether they will survive it I don't know. And I have a guilty conscience. I think my friends will be warned enough. My dad assumed my suicide talk was just empty bla bla. And he was surprised when I actually bought something to kill myself. Lol.
Not so close friends and the people in my self-help group won't care. The same goes for my therapists.
Not so close friends and the people in my self-help group won't care. The same goes for my therapists.
leavingsoonx
Headed to the other side
- Sep 22, 2024
- 118
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It does hurt to think about though. Sometimes though it's just your time to go
I'm worried but I also have a mental illness (I guess, doesn't feel like one) that says they are all dead. If I'm wrong, they will be strong enough to deal with it anyways. They will understand one day why I couldn't continue on. Who wants to live in a world when you think everyone is a zombie alien out to get you and hurt you? Nothing is fixing that for me.
It does hurt to think about though. Sometimes though it's just your time to go
Oh they'll go "oh how horrible"….to "what's for dinner" in minutes. Noone cares as much as you'd think.
My parents will be sad temporarily, but then they'll be relieved at not having to help me anymore, and their marriage will improve. My partner has said multiple times that he hates me and that he feels trapped with me, so he'd be better off too. I don't have any close friends.
WatchMeRot
professional bedrotter
- Dec 4, 2023
- 4
one (and if not, the only) of the reasons i'm still alive is for my mom, she loves me and cares about me so deeply, so every time she has to see me upset it makes me feel even more extremely miserable. it's like an endless loop that i have to stop one way or another.
i think i would go as far as saying she will probably fall to a deep depression and end her own life as well after a few years, even months.
i cannot lie and say this doesn't make me feel like i'm stuck. i just hope she will manage without me.
i think i would go as far as saying she will probably fall to a deep depression and end her own life as well after a few years, even months.
i cannot lie and say this doesn't make me feel like i'm stuck. i just hope she will manage without me.
