im trapped

[neveraskedforthis]

fuck me , yeah im going to make someone sad. its selfish, totally. I dont owe anybody here anything, not even my parents. They had me for their pleasure, they had their cute moments with me and so on. They care for me so they feel like someone needs them, ,which is ultimately out of own interest. I feel trapped, i act selfishly in life, but if i kill myself im still selfish like wtf?? I feel imprisoned holy shit.

 

[bornfree]

do you think facing unlimited cruelty has helped you decide to die to escape their selfishness?

You are not sefish for wanting to die. There are many reasons to die but if your life is so bad you want to die to escape it then how can you be being selfish. you are not selfish

 

[Amnesty]

Life itself is selfish in nature and it is unnatural to be unselfish hence burnouts and it is still selfish enough to die since the other selfish people do not want you to.

Feeling imprisonment to a selfish life since can not escape a selfish death is pratically ironic a bit.

 

[aukguy]

I think it's only selfish from the other parties perspective. i.e. y"ou are suffering but by killing yourself you've left me with unanswered questions and regret" etc.

So you killing yourself is making them hurt, and the realisation that they can no longer help. When you are gone they will still miss you, feel pain and possibly get depressed themselves. But you aren't killing yourself in order to make them feel that, you are doing it to stop your own pain and that's all that matters.

 

[bornfree]

do the maths. Their grief will always happen. You will always die. In fact as you live longer you create more connections and relationships so more will grieve you when you die the longer you live. So what is so selfish?

do the maths. Their grief will always happen. You will always die. In fact as you live longer you create more connections and relationships so more will grieve you when you die the longer you live. So what is so selfish?

i know this is an obvious truth but i do think there are so many obvious truths mising

 

[neveraskedforthis]

do the maths. Their grief will always happen. You will always die. In fact as you live longer you create more connections and relationships so more will grieve you when you die the longer you live. So what is so selfish?

i know this is an obvious truth but i do think there are so many obvious truths mising

This is a good point i did not think about this yet. Pretty true, im hurting more people dying old than dying young.