I'm too much of a coward to do it

[yellow_butterfly]

I'm too much of a coward. I sleep with a rope and I practice knots on it but I am too much of a coward.

I don't own a car so the exhaust with closed windows won't work. Unless if I rent a car for a day but I don't have a full licence. I could buy a second hand car for 'learning to drive' but really it will be for taking drugs, going to sleep and dieing in it.

I don't live in America. I am in Europe so I don't have access to firearms.

I want to die so so so so so very much.