Venting Im too expensive

[nonliv]

I don't work but I'm renting out a place, my mom pays for it. Aswell as therapy. I'm not sure where my money came from, maybe it used to be my collage fund. Therapy is like a 100 each session for my ocd, medication is also 60. I think I would be better of dead then this expensive to maintain. I know my mom loves me alot and it would break her heart, but in the long run atleast she doesn't have to pay so much out of her own pocket. I can't even meet her since my contamination ocd is directly attached to her. I feel like the most useless piece of shit leach. The only reason I'm living is to one day find a job and slowly repay her. Then I can kill myself

 

[annointed_towers]

Same but I'm disabled by extreme pain. I was independent at one point but things changed. I'm bleeding her dry.

 

[nonliv]

Same but I'm disabled by extreme pain. I was independent at one point but things changed. I'm bleeding her dry.

I'm sorry you have to go through this, atleast I'm not alone in this

 

[annointed_towers]

I'm sorry you have to go through this, atleast I'm not alone in this

It comes down to economics. And even if I had all the money in the world and could support myself, I don't want to live in isolation, bed bound with nerve pain anymore.

 

[Tomorrow Is Today]

Can relate. I dropped out due to mental health and family is basically shouldering treatment, housing, maintenance and other costs for me. I feel guilty leeching these resources when I know myself that I don't want to 'get better'.

 

[BrownNoise]

also can relate. living off my old man similar to you. the hope is to take care of him as he ages and when he dies, i'll ctb.

 

[hello kitty]

dont let capitalism make you end your life. dont hate yourself for the expensive things your mom have to pay for you to survive.
hate the people that made this stuff expensive, the greedy humans that put profit before empathy and money before life. and who evere is in control. stay safe <3