Venting I’m too depressed to do anything

[BlueButterfly111]

I plan on ctb in a few days and I'm too depressed to do anything. I miss Henry so much, now more than ever. I want to do it now more than ever, but I promised myself that I would wait until after Mothers Day for the sake of my mom.

I'm so lonely, I can't remember the last time that I've felt alive. I'm having constant migraines, I dread having to shower but I have to do it. I feel like I just want to be with Henry so bad, no one makes me feel the way that he did. All I want is him, I crave him, I miss him so much. Hopefully it's a good sign that I will see him again after I die because he's been on my mind and heart heavily for the past few days.

I crave attention, I crave love and affection but I only want it from him. I've tried it with other guys but I'm in love with him and I only felt good with him. He made life worth living, when he died it's like he took my heart and my soul with him. He made me happy, he made me laugh and smile so much, I'm so depressed.

 

[Like_the_Angel]

I'm so sorry for everything losing your loved one is unbearable i know well, unfortunately the irreparable void they left on us we only will pass on our most loved ones like our mothers
This life really is a hell, I send you a lot of love for the time you still can resist yet