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Xerneas

Xerneas

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Apr 1, 2021
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today i was sitting in my car in a target parking lot thinking about driving my car into a lake. having anxiety is just so tiring and being suicidal is so tiring. ready to ctb shortly.
 
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Beachedwhale

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Mar 3, 2021
526
I'm also so tired.

Drowning would be too painful for me.

I wish you could live pain free.
 
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OpheliasFlowers

Specialist
Apr 2, 2019
348
I totally understand. :( Hugs
 
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Pookie

Pookie

Somebody you used to know.
Oct 18, 2020
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I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Have you tried anything that may help your anxiety?
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
Yes, just living is exhausting.

I can't believe I'm managing to work so much with this goddamn anxiety and suicidal thoughts which might kill me some day? (I hope lol)
 
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EnnuiCat

Completely Catawampus
Nov 20, 2020
57
I totally understand the exhaustion and sudden urge to ctb. The other night I was driving and every phone pole I passed I wanted to swerve headlong into it. Probably would have lived and only made my life infinitely worse.
 
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Xerneas

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Apr 1, 2021
16
I'm also so tired.

Drowning would be too painful for me.

I wish you could live pain free.
Pain is temporary but eventually, peace will come
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Have you tried anything that may help your anxiety?
I smoke a lot of weed, but it can only help so much :')
 
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Im.so.tired

Member
Apr 30, 2021
15
Yes. I'm so tired as well.
 
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BlankUser

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Apr 24, 2021
501
Tired of everything... Tired of trying, tired of failing, tired of living...
 
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Zinz

Wizard
Apr 28, 2021
638
Remember that recklessness leads to regrets. Only act when the path is clear and has least resistance, be it living or catching the bus.
Its always up to you- but please don't jump on ideas in the moment. Death isn't the worst thing in this world.
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
904
My anxiety was pretty high these last months too. And ctb thoughts increased. I don't want to deal with this anymore. Everyday is torture!
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,669
Yes, I can relate. I find simply just existing to be tiring. Anxiety can be like a prison and our thoughts can torture us. To me death is the only way I can find peace.
 

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