I'm such a f*cking mess.

[WorthlessTrash]

Incapable of feeling excitment from hobbies, feel sick to my stomach from the thought of leaving my house, super jealous of the opposite sex being happy and prideful of their appearance, feel bad about myself when i see attractive people of the opposite sex.

No motivation to care about my own appearance, wanting to burst into tears when i see the opposite sex, i just lay in bed all day as of late unless i am coaxed out of the house, i want to throw myself off a building or in front of a train to destroy my body as a symbolic message of how much i hate myself and body.

I just want out before i grow any older. What a useless, cringey piece of crap I am.....

/rant

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really is so unfair and I'm sorry that you are in such an unbearable situation. I also do not want to get older, the thought of old age is absolutely horrifying. I certainly want to be gone before then. I hope that you find relief from your suffering.

 

[rationaltake]

I'm in a similar position. I just can't stand living in this thing.

 

[Sarros]

I used to feel envious seeing couples when I go outside. Now even just the sight of attractive people of either sex unsettles me. I can't focus. It just sends me into a chagrin.

 

[Seeking_Peace]

I don't even have an appetite most days.

 

[outatime_85]

Whoever coded this simulation/world needs to check their code for return 1 errors, because it isn't working successfully for everyone.

 

[downndone2]

I'm so sorry! I too rarely leave the house for anything. I can hardly stand the thought of being out anywhere. Other than work, I'm good just laying around in bed too

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Looking at my triggers and then myself in the mirror makes me 100% confident i need to off myself. I just wish the ball bounced differently and i was born the right sex.

I'm currently 300+ lbs and male and I have zero reason to do anything about my weight.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm currently 300+ lbs and male and I have zero reason to do anything about my weight.

I know it is no consolation to you, but this will get you, eventually, although it is a slow, torturous way to go, though, that just induces more torturous conditions along the way.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I know it is no consolation to you, but this will get you, eventually, although it is a slow, torturous way to go, though, that just induces more torturous conditions along the way.

I plan to be gone long before that happens lol