As some of you know, I was supposed to CTB last week. I'm a failure, I couldn't get it done. I hate myself. I'm angry at myself. I'm lost as it was the perfect opportunity. Fuck life, fuck everything. All I can think about is how I should be dead and not dealing with the BS of life and these constant thoughts. I'm still here and I HATE IT.
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,625
I understand why you would be frustrated. Of course suicide is very difficult after all, but no matter what the option to ctb is always there. I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.
miserableforever
Arcanist
- Oct 23, 2020
- 487
I'm sorry to hear that. You can try again at some point.It's just that it felt like it should have been the day, it felt right, the weather was right, it was before xmas, i feel like a total failure more than i normally do. It's a weird feeling dealing with the world when you thought you'd be dead ... hopefully i can successfullly do it soon. I fucking hate everythingSimilar threads
