Venting I’m so tired.

[failedmind]

Complete vent post. Just need to get my thoughts out of my head.

Just sat on my bed and held my stepdads gun for a solid 15 minutes and just cried. God I wish I could just do it. I'm so tired. I'm defeated. I'm ready. Why is this so hard? Why do I have to suffer here when I'm so unhappy? Why is killing yourself so hard?

I can't keep doing this. I can't function or hold a job or get out of bed. I'm nothing. I feel like a ghost.

I can't wait until I get SN and get the courage. I can't wait to be at peace. I've never felt okay.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I also just wish for some peace, I've personally always felt so tired of suffering in this existence. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace and relief you search for.

 

[Odd socks]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I also just wish for some peace, I've personally always felt so tired of suffering in this existence. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace and relief you search for.

That's what attracts me about death, the peace of it. To be fair I'm 74 so I've had a long run. Not like many of you who appear to be young.

 

[LigottiSchopenhauer]

I totally understand what you're saying. I have a gun but I can't quite work up the courage to shoot it at myself. I hope that we can both find peace soon, either in life or in death.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

Honestly even when you CAN function it's not necessarily a good thing, because then they EXPECT you to function. All the time. Under any circumstances. And when you finally give you, they toss you aside like garbage.