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pomcustard

pomcustard

Almost free
Jul 29, 2024
58
Just the thought of still waking up after an attempt is horrifying to me. It almost makes me too scared to even attempt to begin with. I'm planning on ctb soon and I don't know what I'll do if it fails again. I'm too weak to use a method like hanging, drowning, or cutting. I desperately need this to work. I just want to be at peace. Please let this work.
 
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Themogger

Themogger

Why so serious?
Jul 23, 2024
241
Just the thought of still waking up after an attempt is horrifying to me. It almost makes me too scared to even attempt to begin with. I'm planning on ctb soon and I don't know what I'll do if it fails again. I'm too weak to use a method like hanging, drowning, or cutting. I desperately need this to work. I just want to be at peace. Please let this work.
What method do you plan on using?
 
Themogger

Themogger

Why so serious?
Jul 23, 2024
241
I plan on using SN. It's listed as 99+% purity and I bought it from a chemical supplier.
You have the other stuff too? AE? Antacids? As long as you have a procedure you should be good to go
 
pomcustard

pomcustard

Almost free
Jul 29, 2024
58
You have the other stuff too? AE? Antacids? As long as you have a procedure you should be good to go
I have anti emetics and paracetamol too. Also there seems to be mixed reactions on antacids. I'm seeing people debate that it can affect the absorption of SN, so I'm not sure if I should be taking it.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,678
I understand, I have the same fear, it's so horrific and terrifying to me how one can end up trapped in a situation of way worse torment in an existence already so immensely cruel. I also just want peace, I wish for a painless death just like never waking again, I hope you find what you search for.
 
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