I'm so filled with regret and shame

[RevolutionaryRed]

I could never go into detail on why I'm so shameful. I could never move on from my past mistakes. I'm paralyzed by my past. That's all I think about, the past. I've accomplished nothing since 2015. It's been a downward spiral since then .

 

[can_ash_be_redeemed]

You're anonymous here, friend. If you ever need to let it all out, we're here for you. It sounds like you lack closure and won't be able to focus on the present until you get it.

 

[RevolutionaryRed]

You're anonymous here, friend. If you ever need to let it all out, we're here for you. It sounds like you lack closure and won't be able to focus on the present until you get it.

If closure was sold at a grocery store, I'd buy out the whole inventory. Being alone with my thoughts drives me mad nowadays. I always have something on to distract me. Whether it's a podcast or music. You don't know how many conspiracy podcasts I've listened to ( the CIA are strange lads).

I'm lonely. I miss my friends. That's what it is. I never felt so alone. I wonder how many people feel exactly like me .

 

[can_ash_be_redeemed]

If closure was sold at a grocery store, I'd buy out the whole inventory. Being alone with my thoughts drives me mad nowadays. I always have something on to distract me. Whether it's a podcast or music. You don't know how many conspiracy podcasts I've listened to ( the CIA are strange lads).

I'm lonely. I miss my friends. That's what it is. I never felt so alone. I wonder how many people feel exactly like me .

Plenty, mate. If you need podcast recommendations - I'm a big fan of Knowledge Fight and Filthy Casuals. They're about debunking Alex Jones shit and video games respectively, but I mostly listen because the hosts are parasocially some of my best friends. But the forums are here too.

 

[RevolutionaryRed]

Plenty, mate. If you need podcast recommendations - I'm a big fan of Knowledge Fight and Filthy Casuals. They're about debunking Alex Jones shit and video games respectively, but I mostly listen because the hosts are parasocially some of my best friends. But the forums are here too.

The forums are great ... In short bursts. I can't stay on for longer than a few hours a month . It's kinda embarrassing, I joined almost 4 years ago and I'm still here. Alot of guys I met on here and gotten close too are sadly... Gone.

Life's strange. And thanks for the podcast recommendation. I'll definitely check that out

 

[FuneralCry]

It can be painful to deal with regret as we cannot forget the past, and we cannot go back in time and change things. I understand it can be a dreadful feeling when things just get worse. This life can be very depressing. I wish you the best.