I’m so fed up

[butterfly3]

i cant find anywhere to get sn without it either being restricted to individuals and only sold to companies, or only people age 21+ can buy it (im 18).
i just need a way out and i don't want it excruciatingly painful. i dont have enough money for N and i cant find any pure nitrogen, helium or carbon monoxide gas anywhere. its also obviously gonna be difficult to find fentanyl because it's illegal.
im so fed up and i dont know what to do. not a day goes by where suicide and the uncontrollable feeling of wanting to die leaves my mind. im just done i don't wanna deal with life anymore. i dont wanna go with hanging because that just seems so gory and just kinda barbaric.

 

[user48]

Where do you live?

 

[ihopethisispainless]

i cant find anywhere to get sn without it either being restricted to individuals and only sold to companies, or only people age 21+ can buy it (im 18).
i just need a way out and i don't want it excruciatingly painful. i dont have enough money for N and i cant find any pure nitrogen, helium or carbon monoxide gas anywhere. its also obviously gonna be difficult to find fentanyl because it's illegal.
im so fed up and i dont know what to do. not a day goes by where suicide and the innate feeling of wanting to die leaves my mind. im just done i don't wanna deal with life anymore. i dont wanna go with hanging because that just seems so gory and just kinda barbaric.

Hey buddy. I'm gonna send a pm

 

[butterfly3]

Where do you live?

i live in the uk

Hey buddy. I'm gonna send a pm

ok that's cool w me

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. I understand how you feel, all that I want is to be gone yet I feel trapped in this world as suicide is so difficult for me. We all deserve the option of a reliable and peaceful way to exit, no one should have to resort to risky and painful methods. I have never attempted hanging as it sounds like an awful way to leave this world and I am scared of it going wrong. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens, this life really can be so tiring and depressing. I wish you the best.