Venting I’m so broken that nothing helps me anymore

[HorribleFeelings1]

I'm so broken and torn apart that i hate being around people, no matter who talks to me, they can't help me, I'm tired of the "it gets better" talks and others trying to help me. I'm hopeless. I'm 100% positive I want to die and I hate waiting for my CTB date. I hate waiting for people and I hate waiting in general. I'm not gonna even have a peaceful death. I wish I died Saturday when I made that goodbye thread. But I care too much about people and what other people will think and I hate that fact. I'm done. Sorry I just had to vent so thank you for reading.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Hey Lil Bro..sorry to hear that ur in so much pain..wish there was something I could say or do to make u feel betta..u know how I feel about u.I wish u would reconsider this for right now. ..U know I'm ALWAYS available to talk to u

Ur still a "baby" n SO much can change..

*Yeah I said it n I ain't takin it back!!!*

 

[Ghost2211]

I am here for you if you need a friend or someone to talk to <3

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I'm also considered a "baby" here. I can't promise you anything. I can't promise things would get better or that things can get worse. I'm not sure I could give you hope either. All I can do is be here if you want to talk. And all I can promise is that things can change. For the better or the worse I won't know. It's your life, it's your decision. I'm here and I'm sending you tons of hugs so that maybe you will find some peace in either life or death

 

[Soulless_Angel]

No idea on why people are saying some are stil babies on here? Are you relating to age etc?
Either way, if you are certain that's the path you want then I agree the waiting game is a bitch, a lot of us here play it,
BUT are you 150% this is the path you want to take, if so what has brought you here? I do not know your story so bare with me!

 

[Lostandfound7]

No idea on why people are saying some are stil babies on here? Are you relating to age etc?
Either way, if you are certain that's the path you want then I agree the waiting game is a bitch, a lot of us here play it,
BUT are you 150% this is the path you want to take, if so what has brought you here? I do not know your story so bare with me!

When I say that he is a baby ( I consider him to b my lil bro so that's the kind of relationship we have) I am def speaking of age n possibly experience.

While I could never promise anyone a better future, at 18 n younger, there is so much untapped potential. Career, mate, children,etc. N if u haven't even begun to venture out into those arenas, how will u even know if u will succeed or fail?
Like I said, this is in this particular case. I don't pretend to know anyone else's story.

He's my "lil bro" n at his present age, I will continue to fight for him til I die, to explore his future n other options...