Venting I'm recovering? i think?

[SweetChariot]

After 2 weeks of sudden bout of deep depression, literal mental anguish at every moment rushing through my head, can't think of nothing but CTBing suddenly i'm just kinda okay?
Fucking insane how the mind works, i haven't even taken any meds yet but i already set up appointment with a psychiatrist that will maybe give me some
Though a calm mind doesn't exactly fix my life so i'd probably rebound again but yeah i dunno i just feel like letting this out somewhere and feels like this is a good place to do it
I've read somewhere that keeping the mind like that takes a toll on the body too so at one point whatever the hell chemical and hormones that are running would have to peter out at some point
I'm just rambling nonsense at this point forget it i wish i wasn't mentally ill

 

[meowpuppy]

hope this lasts for you.. unfortunately, none of these little lucid bouts have ever lasted more than a day for me, and i've had, gosh, i think i've literally one had one in memory

 

[LostHighway]

After 2 weeks of sudden bout of deep depression, literal mental anguish at every moment rushing through my head, can't think of nothing but CTBing suddenly i'm just kinda okay?
Fucking insane how the mind works, i haven't even taken any meds yet but i already set up appointment with a psychiatrist that will maybe give me some
Though a calm mind doesn't exactly fix my life so i'd probably rebound again but yeah i dunno i just feel like letting this out somewhere and feels like this is a good place to do it
I've read somewhere that keeping the mind like that takes a toll on the body too so at one point whatever the hell chemical and hormones that are running would have to peter out at some point
I'm just rambling nonsense at this point forget it i wish i wasn't mentally ill

YAY!! I"m so happy for you. The sooner you step away from the label you put on yourself of being suicidal the better. See a therapist in addition to a psychiatrist. You may not need an antidepressant. (though my SSRI saved my life). Now, go fix your life.

 

[SweetChariot]

As i expected i still woke up with the *feelings* again, god it's miserable but honestly not as bad as the previous weeks
Though i appreciate all the love here

YAY!! I"m so happy for you. The sooner you step away from the label you put on yourself of being suicidal the better. See a therapist in addition to a psychiatrist. You may not need an antidepressant. (though my SSRI saved my life). Now, go fix your life.

Yeah honestly i feel like i really should, if nothing else to keep my mind straight it's been so bad
I heard about emotional blunting and how it could be another flavor of miserable but i'll try anything at this point