Venting I'm like dead soul imprisoned in a prison-body

[LenkaX]

This life is a prison for me.

Psychiatry ruined my life. And I can't do anything.

Now I had several days of opportunity to comfortably CTB with SN, but I didn't do it.

Now something much worse will come. I will probably end in psych ward in few weeks, because I can't handle this level of stress.

If there is a god, I hate him!!! Life is such a prison, such suffering for me. I wish I was never born. There is nothing I can change, all this suffering was predestined for me. I can't even CTB! I wish I could do it!

 

[PaxAmerica]

I feel like a prisoner too. Its so taxing on my system passing the minutes. I would need something like a miracle to put things right. Please God if there is a way you can help me will you?

 

[Snake of Eden]

Me too. Not able to ctb or truly live life either. It is like those contradictory forces are fighting over to win and dominate each minute of my life. One moment i want to ctb and the next not and so on..

 

[FuneralCry]

I can relate. Our bodies can be like prisons with death being the only escape. I believe my suffering was predestined as what happened to me for the most part was out of my control. I couldn't have prevented it. I would do anything for a peaceful exit really, it should be a basic human right to get one. It isn't like we asked to be alive in the first place. It is awful to be trapped in a hopeless situation.