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deletednumber

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Right now, here it is 5 am and I am in the throes of a severe anxiety attack, I can barely breathe, I feel a strong pain in my head and in my cheast and I feel paralyzed in my legs,I have visions of myself committing suicide and I feel the urge to hurt myself ... I would like to die while I'm crying all my tears right now and scream loud cause I can't take it anymore, I'm alone and I felt the need to write it here :( :( someone kill me i beg you
 
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Feeding Pigeons

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Hang on, it won't last. Go grab an ice cube.
 
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deletednumber

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Hang on, it won't last. Go grab an ice cube.
I can't move right now but thank you for your answer...i'll wash my face with cold water,i don't have ice cube at the moment
 
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Feeding Pigeons

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I can't move right now but thank you for your answer...i'll wash my face with cold water,i don't have ice cube at the moment
You're doing great, you're already over the hump.
 
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Foresight

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Cry as you need, come talk to us. Whatever you need. You're not alone.
 
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deletednumber

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Thank you really for your help:) it means a lot for me...i just feel so tired of this pain repeating to infinite...feels like hell,it never ends.No one can see that you are suffering ... it seems an invisible disease and yet it is very painful:(
 
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Foresight

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It's meant to be felt. We run and run and run and things come up.

We see you. You're in a safe place to be heard. I hope you're able to get some deeper breaths in at this rate. A good cry is a good cry, I know panic attacks are beyond that but it'll move through you. I can sense your strength, you're tough to be holding onto so much.
 
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deletednumber

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It's meant to be felt. We run and run and run and things come up.

We see you. You're in a safe place to be heard. I hope you're able to get some deeper breaths in at this rate. A good cry is a good cry, I know panic attacks are beyond that but it'll move through you. I can sense your strength, you're tough to be holding onto so much.
:') <3 thank you for your words...i'm breathing deeper...now i have "only "a bad headache and i feel just very sad,i'm used to it,i just am very tired,this depression has devoured me year after year
 
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Foresight

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Made me smile for night. You got this. Who knows about tomorrow but you got this moment.

Our hurt lets itself be known, you know? I'm coming up from the same kind of moment and I know the feeling. You deserve this cry. Hang out around here and get yourself some water when you can. Rest your eyes when you're ready.
 
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No one can see that you are suffering ... it seems an invisible disease and yet it is very painful:(
I know what you mean but does have ways that its seen. We see it and to everyone else who you have compassion for because you know what pain feels like...they see it to, just in another way.

I know what you mean that a broken leg gets more accommodations and respect tho, but I think that is changing. slowly but it is, even from just when I was younger.
 
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deletednumber

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Made me smile for night. You got this. Who knows about tomorrow but you got this moment.

Our hurt lets itself be known, you know? I'm coming up from the same kind of moment and I know the feeling. You deserve this cry. Hang out around here and get yourself some water when you can. Rest your eyes when you're ready.
your words are so healing ... thanks for your messages<3<3 i'm so sorry you know the feeling
I know what you mean but does have ways that its seen. We see it and to everyone else who you have compassion for because you know what pain feels like...they see it to, just in another way.

I know what you mean that a broken leg gets more accommodations and respect tho, but I think that is changing. slowly but it is, even from just when I was younger.
It's true ... but sadly mental illness is still so much misunderstood and that doesn't help...i hope the situation will change completely at least for the next generation
 
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FuneralCry

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I'm sorry you had to go through this. It sounds horrible. Anxiety really can be awful. I understand that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best.
 
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