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Silent Forrest

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Jul 14, 2022
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Im hoping to ctb by the of tonight.
Im using nearly 80mg oxcodone, 3grams pregabalin, nearly 50mg of clonazepam and more to come, and finally 15mg of olanzapine.
If I last another hour I will use another 80mg of oxcodone, another 3 grams plus of pregabalin and an additional 50mg of clonazepam and may add baclofen too.
I hope this brings me much awaited peace.
To my family, I do not do this to psychological traumatize you but to punish myself for the things, I've done and fell immense guiltt and remorse about my actions.
Im tired if this neurodevelopemental disorder grey matter heterotopia, Autism level 2 and an intellectual disorder with a iq of around 64. I also suffer from multiple mental illnesses ie major depression, Generalised Anxiety Disorder, OCD, ADHD and possibly PTSD.
To my NDIS support workers dont feel bad about what has transpired, neither do i want you to feel guilt that you could have prevented this.
Im 33 years old and I've tried psychologists and psychiatrists to no vail.
I never had a relationship to fear of exposing them to an Autistic Meltdown. Neither had i ever been employed and am on the Disability support pension.
 
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wine is fine but

whiskey's quicker
Jul 26, 2025
317
i am so sorry you had to endure this

you should not feel guilt - you cannot have helped any meltdowns or anything. i hope you are as comfortable as possible in your last moments and find the peace you are looking for
 
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Matchaaa

pragmatics errors can kill me
Dec 10, 2025
343
I'm sorry you had to go through this, I hope you find peace.
wish the best for you
 
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darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
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love and peace to you my friend ❤️🕊️
 
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tooafraidtodiez

Will CTB before my favourite show ends
Apr 29, 2026
87
Im hoping to ctb by the of tonight.
Im using nearly 80mg oxcodone, 3grams pregabalin, nearly 50mg of clonazepam and more to come, and finally 15mg of olanzapine.
If I last another hour I will use another 80mg of oxcodone, another 3 grams plus of pregabalin and an additional 50mg of clonazepam and may add baclofen too.
I hope this brings me much awaited peace.
To my family, I do not do this to psychological traumatize you but to punish myself for the things, I've done and fell immense guiltt and remorse about my actions.
Im tired if this neurodevelopemental disorder grey matter heterotopia, Autism level 2 and an intellectual disorder with a iq of around 64. I also suffer from multiple mental illnesses ie major depression, Generalised Anxiety Disorder, OCD, ADHD and possibly PTSD.
To my NDIS support workers dont feel bad about what has transpired, neither do i want you to feel guilt that you could have prevented this.
Im 33 years old and I've tried psychologists and psychiatrists to no vail.
I never had a relationship to fear of exposing them to an Autistic Meltdown. Neither had i ever been employed and am on the Disability support pension.
I hope this works out for you and you may find the peace you desire.
 
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RadiantNumber

Arcanist
Mar 2, 2024
417
Im hoping to ctb by the of tonight.
Im using nearly 80mg oxcodone, 3grams pregabalin, nearly 50mg of clonazepam and more to come, and finally 15mg of olanzapine.
If I last another hour I will use another 80mg of oxcodone, another 3 grams plus of pregabalin and an additional 50mg of clonazepam and may add baclofen too.
I hope this brings me much awaited peace.
To my family, I do not do this to psychological traumatize you but to punish myself for the things, I've done and fell immense guiltt and remorse about my actions.
Im tired if this neurodevelopemental disorder grey matter heterotopia, Autism level 2 and an intellectual disorder with a iq of around 64. I also suffer from multiple mental illnesses ie major depression, Generalised Anxiety Disorder, OCD, ADHD and possibly PTSD.
To my NDIS support workers dont feel bad about what has transpired, neither do i want you to feel guilt that you could have prevented this.
Im 33 years old and I've tried psychologists and psychiatrists to no vail.
I never had a relationship to fear of exposing them to an Autistic Meltdown. Neither had i ever been employed and am on the Disability support pension.
Hope you'll find peace
 
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