I’m having a hard time plz can it all stop

[abruptum]

Every day i wake up just to self sabotage myself
I live my day just getting angry with myself, have episodes of psychosis, get more angry at myself, feel bad about my accomplishments and discredit them, remember all my responsibility, and then feel like what i'm thinking isn't valid because i'm worthless and useless.
This all happens just to go back to bed and redo it all over again day after day week after week month after month.
Why can't i just be happy i just can't take it anymore

 

[Lost Magic]

I know the feeling.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm realk sorry to hear this. That eternal cycle of anger, frustration, depression and going back to bed certainly suck.

I hope you can manage to set short goals or take a shower every day.

These small achievements will give you more strength to deal with life.

I think that's the only way to get out from the depression and cbt zone.

Wish you the best and hope you can feel better soon.