I'm going tonight

[watermelonsugaré]

My method is N, I've got Meto and a Benzo on hand, I'll take 3 x 10mg meto 40 minutes before. Then coat my mouth with honey and drink 200 ml of N
I've already began the fast 3 hours ago (aiming for a 10-12 hour fast), I've gotten most of my affairs in order, I made a will. I will send a timed email to law enforcement informing them of the location of my body and a timed text message to a couple of close friends informing them about my ctb and that they should contact police to inform them too.
I did a bunch of drugs like E and K in the last few days to have some fun before it all ends

I'm excited and relieved to finally be done with the suffering but a part of me definitely has second thoughts about going through with it now, that part of me definitely wants to wait a month or two to see if it's get better but I'm like 95% sure I'm going tonight

I appreciate all the advice and information that is on this forum, thank you all for guiding the despaired to a peaceful end instead of a gory painful death that society forces on us.

 

[Wizard999666]

Godspeed. See you on the other side.

 

[Luna88]

My method is N, I've got Meto and a Benzo on hand, I'll take 3 x 10mg meto 40 minutes before. Then coat my mouth with honey and drink 200 ml of N
I've already began the fast 3 hours ago (aiming for a 10-12 hour fast, I've gotten most of my affairs in order, I made a will. I will send a timed email to law enforcement informing them of the location of my body and a timed text message to a couple of close friends informing them about my ctb and that they should contact police to inform them too.
I did a bunch of drugs like E and K in the last few days to have some fun before it all ends

I'm excited and relieved to finally be done with the suffering but a part of me definitely has second thoughts about going through with it now, that part of me definitely wants to wait a month or two to see if it's get better but I'm like 95% sure I'm going tonight

I appreciate all the advice and information that is on this forum, thank you all for guiding the despaired to a peaceful end instead of a gory painful death that society forces on us.

I have the same method as you, only I just can't drink alone. I wished I was with you. I send you lots of love and strength

 

[Endtimes1]

My method is N, I've got Meto and a Benzo on hand, I'll take 3 x 10mg meto 40 minutes before. Then coat my mouth with honey and drink 200 ml of N
I've already began the fast 3 hours ago (aiming for a 10-12 hour fast), I've gotten most of my affairs in order, I made a will. I will send a timed email to law enforcement informing them of the location of my body and a timed text message to a couple of close friends informing them about my ctb and that they should contact police to inform them too.
I did a bunch of drugs like E and K in the last few days to have some fun before it all ends

I'm excited and relieved to finally be done with the suffering but a part of me definitely has second thoughts about going through with it now, that part of me definitely wants to wait a month or two to see if it's get better but I'm like 95% sure I'm going tonight

I appreciate all the advice and information that is on this forum, thank you all for guiding the despaired to a peaceful end instead of a gory painful death that society forces on us.

You seem to want to live and try more. Please do, try a little bit longer. The chance to CTB will not go away, but your chance of getting a last try will be lost.

I'm no pro lifer trying to stop you at all cost, but 5% is significant. Please go for it and try to live just a little while longer.

 

[MatthewV3]

I hope it will go well. Good luck.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point and I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do. I can imagine that it must be a relief having the option of N. I hope you find peace whether you go through with it or not.

 

[CrossroadsCurious]

Peace be your journey!

 

[hendry]

Good trip! find peace and happiness.

 

[watermelonsugaré]

Thank you all for the kind words but I have decided to postpone it until tomorrow or thursday