I’m getting really serious about this and I need some help

[whatstheporpoise15]

I've been posting a lot, I know. I'm really starting to think that I'm ready and it's time to get plans into place. Right now my #1 option is hanging. As much as I don't want to spend the last hour of my life puking my guts up and in terrible pain, SN will be a 2nd option. I have some questions.

-I've been able to easily figure out most acronyms on this site, but for the life of me I can't figure out what IC is or where to get SN. If someone could PM me, I'd so appreciate that.
-I can probably convince my psychiatrist to give me propranolol. Meto, I'm not so sure because I've been very vocal about not wanting to be on antipsychotics. Is it possible to procure it on the dark web?
-What is the best material for ligature, and and what knot should the anchor point have?

I'm planning to buy some cheap turtlenecks somewhere so I can do run throughs of hanging without leaving marks on my neck. I know where and when I would most likely carry out each plan. I need it to be successful on the first try. Otherwise I'll be hospitalized and then on lockdown at home and have no opportunities again.

Above all, I believe that having the tools I need will allow me some inner peace, and maybe I'll be able to carry on with life knowing that I'm in control and it's in my hands.

Many thanks.

 

[befree]

IC is an SN source. If you are in Europe, there are other sources. In case your psychiatrist will not give you a prescription for Propranolol and an antiemetic, there are sources as well. I wouldn't order something like that in the darkweb.

I would not recommend to ask your psychiatrist to give you a prescription for Propranolol AND an antiemetic He might get suspicious. They know what you use them for.

 

[uglylonely]

just PMed you

 

[whatstheporpoise15]

IC is an SN source. If you are in Europe, there are other sources. In case your psychiatrist will not give you a prescription for Propranolol and an antiemetic, there are sources as well. I wouldn't order something like that in the darkweb.

I would not recommend to ask your psychiatrist to give you a prescription for Propranolol AND an antiemetic He might get suspicious. They know what you use them for.

Could you send me sources for an antiemetic? I'm not in Europe thankfully (or not, depending on how you look at things).

 

[theboy]

I don't recommend asking a psychiatrist for that.
You can not leave marks on the neck by wrapping it with scarves or thick fabrics