Venting I'm getting dumb

[Irrumi]

In recent years with chronic pain, I've felt dumb and empty. I used to write little original stories and was full of ideas, but now that's gone. All the plot moves seem obvious and the characters annoy me. My imagination is meager. I don't know if I can even take my mind off my misery with creativity.

I can't play strategy games and think a lot about a topic. I don't want to go to work with intellectual labor, though I feel it would have suited me best in the past. I just want to sleep forever.

I hate the way I've become. A wasted potential. I wasn't very smart before, but now I'm just a stupid creature.

 

[Deleted member 10090]

I'm sorry. I feel similar, I have dealt with chronic pain for 4+ years now. It has affected my memory and cognition as well. constantly having most if not all of your focus and energy on the pain makes it hard to do anything.

 

[przeciwwymiotne]

In recent years with chronic pain, I've felt dumb and empty. I used to write little original stories and was full of ideas, but now that's gone. All the plot moves seem obvious and the characters annoy me. My imagination is meager. I don't know if I can even take my mind off my misery with creativity.

I can't play strategy games and think a lot about a topic. I don't want to go to work with intellectual labor, though I feel it would have suited me best in the past. I just want to sleep forever.

I hate the way I've become. A wasted potential. I wasn't very smart before, but now I'm just a stupid creature.

Same here, I can't believe that I'm like this, my identity is gone yet I'm somehow still here¿

 

[Irrumi]

I'm sorry. I feel similar, I have dealt with chronic pain for 4+ years now. It has affected my memory and cognition as well. constantly having most if not all of your focus and energy on the pain makes it hard to do anything.

It's really hard to live with chronic pain.

 

[Deleted member 10090]

It's really hard to live with chronic pain.

yup, i wouldn't even call it living - we merely just exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that life brought you to this point. To me it's so horrifying how our bodies are capable of torturing us to such great extents. There does seem to be no real relief from suffering in a life like this. Best wishes.

 

[Irrumi]

I'm sorry that life brought you to this point. To me it's so horrifying how our bodies are capable of torturing us to such great extents. There does seem to be no real relief from suffering in a life like this. Best wishes.

thank you for answer. your answers are always accurate.

 

[Trifecta]

That sounds painfully familiar and I'm sorry you have to deal with that. I miss my imagination, I used to burst with fantasy and daydreams, now my mind seems stuffed with cotton and it takes me forever to formulate a thought.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I used to do so many things - Cooking, playing music, travel, dinner parties… Now I do absolutely nothing but convalesce…