Venting I'm filled with hate (and alcohol)

[H0110W]

I hate this fucking human world, I hate everyone and most importantly I hate myself! Everyone just wants to take advantage, nobody is there for you. If you ask for help, they help you out of pity. Anyone who genuinely cares is fucked! They will take advantage of you, you will be alone, and then the depression hits you. You will be excluded from everything, because you "must be fun at parties". So much for diversity, equity and inclusion! If you have depression, it's fucking over... it's over! Fucking kill yourself, nobody will care outside your family. They will laugh about you, tell you were weird, a pathetic loner, but you will be dead so who cares... they will keep talking shit about you, nothing will change, you will not be remembered fondly. There is nothing glamorous about killing yourself, it's a selfish act and nobody will give a shit. They will laugh about you, in death like they did when you were alive.

It's fucking over. Humanity is fucked, nobody will ever care, you will be alone, cope, pay for counseling, that's all you have. Take meds, that will surely help. When having someone world surely help, but you have nobody, because you're weird, because you're sad, because you're not smiling... Thats how it is, nobody gives a shit, so buy pills and pay a "professional" who doesn't give a fuck, so you have someone to talk to... FUCK IT ALL! Why do I have to pay to get someone to listen to me... it's so unfair. Not that it matters, I have nothing interesting to say.

I don't care anymore. I am self destructing through isolation and excessive drinking. When I feel like I'm done, I'll take the SN.

Fuck this shitty human world, I am nearly 40 years old, and every year is worse than the year before, humanity keeps getting worse, and I am fucking done. I have no energy, no drive, no hope, all I have is the bottle, nobody listens to me, nobody cares, nothing matters. There is nothing left. It's fucking over.

 

[Hollowman]

Very relatable. It's been over for my punk ass for years.

 

[whywere]

Well, I care about you a lot. I am 68 turning 69 and like you have been down the road of life and seen so many crappy people, HOWEVER there are some who are kind and caring, just look at everyone here, the cream of humanity.

I learned a long time ago, back in the 1970's that I was never going to let negative, backstabbing crummy folks not only bother me but make me waste precious time and energy on them since they never had any intention of getting better and trying to be kinder and more humanistic.

You are such a kind and caring soul; your entire message speaks that so loud and clear. I can feel how you are, as I have felt the same before, but I am darned if I will let some idiot who thinks that they know better than me with a huge ego get me down and I have the same wish for you, my good friend.

Take care and try and remember that you are a precious and ever so caring of a spirit.

Lots of well wishes and sunny blue skies to you, my good friend.

Walter

 

[Chinaski]

just look at everyone here, the cream of humanity.

Yes, agreed, so much cream

 

[Arin]

Thank you for being so honest. I really appreciate this

 

[Done_with_the_world]

I hate this fucking human world, I hate everyone and most importantly I hate myself! Everyone just wants to take advantage, nobody is there for you. If you ask for help, they help you out of pity. Anyone who genuinely cares is fucked! They will take advantage of you, you will be alone, and then the depression hits you. You will be excluded from everything, because you "must be fun at parties". So much for diversity, equity and inclusion! If you have depression, it's fucking over... it's over! Fucking kill yourself, nobody will care outside your family. They will laugh about you, tell you were weird, a pathetic loner, but you will be dead so who cares... they will keep talking shit about you, nothing will change, you will not be remembered fondly. There is nothing glamorous about killing yourself, it's a selfish act and nobody will give a shit. They will laugh about you, in death like they did when you were alive.

It's fucking over. Humanity is fucked, nobody will ever care, you will be alone, cope, pay for counseling, that's all you have. Take meds, that will surely help. When having someone world surely help, but you have nobody, because you're weird, because you're sad, because you're not smiling... Thats how it is, nobody gives a shit, so buy pills and pay a "professional" who doesn't give a fuck, so you have someone to talk to... FUCK IT ALL! Why do I have to pay to get someone to listen to me... it's so unfair. Not that it matters, I have nothing interesting to say.

I don't care anymore. I am self destructing through isolation and excessive drinking. When I feel like I'm done, I'll take the SN.

Fuck this shitty human world, I am nearly 40 years old, and every year is worse than the year before, humanity keeps getting worse, and I am fucking done. I have no energy, no drive, no hope, all I have is the bottle, nobody listens to me, nobody cares, nothing matters. There is nothing left. It's fucking over.

You want a drinking buddy? Cuz damn I relate! Only thing that makes me very happy anymore is alcohol. But yeah, I'm tired of people, they suck. I have tried too. Counselling doesn't feel like it's going anywhere, and I think my family has just about given up on having any hope for me. Not that it matters. Nothing matters, not truly. The universe is a cold, dark, empty place that doesn't care about the frivolous things we subject ourselves and others to. In 5 years, all the things that matter now, won't do anything. People will never learn, continue to make mistakes and history will always keep repeating. I hope as a last resort to save up all my money that I can and make a bunker, or a cabin and completely live off grid and away from everyone, with a t.v. and my favourite slasher films. If I can't do that, then it's time. It's finally time.

 

[suicidegirl71]

I hate this fucking human world, I hate everyone and most importantly I hate myself! Everyone just wants to take advantage, nobody is there for you. If you ask for help, they help you out of pity. Anyone who genuinely cares is fucked! They will take advantage of you, you will be alone, and then the depression hits you. You will be excluded from everything, because you "must be fun at parties". So much for diversity, equity and inclusion! If you have depression, it's fucking over... it's over! Fucking kill yourself, nobody will care outside your family. They will laugh about you, tell you were weird, a pathetic loner, but you will be dead so who cares... they will keep talking shit about you, nothing will change, you will not be remembered fondly. There is nothing glamorous about killing yourself, it's a selfish act and nobody will give a shit. They will laugh about you, in death like they did when you were alive.

It's fucking over. Humanity is fucked, nobody will ever care, you will be alone, cope, pay for counseling, that's all you have. Take meds, that will surely help. When having someone world surely help, but you have nobody, because you're weird, because you're sad, because you're not smiling... Thats how it is, nobody gives a shit, so buy pills and pay a "professional" who doesn't give a fuck, so you have someone to talk to... FUCK IT ALL! Why do I have to pay to get someone to listen to me... it's so unfair. Not that it matters, I have nothing interesting to say.

I don't care anymore. I am self destructing through isolation and excessive drinking. When I feel like I'm done, I'll take the SN.

Fuck this shitty human world, I am nearly 40 years old, and every year is worse than the year before, humanity keeps getting worse, and I am fucking done. I have no energy, no drive, no hope, all I have is the bottle, nobody listens to me, nobody cares, nothing matters. There is nothing left. It's fucking over.

I can totally relate at 53 years old

 

[Asiam]

I hate this fucking human world, I hate everyone and most importantly I hate myself! Everyone just wants to take advantage, nobody is there for you. If you ask for help, they help you out of pity. Anyone who genuinely cares is fucked! They will take advantage of you, you will be alone, and then the depression hits you. You will be excluded from everything, because you "must be fun at parties". So much for diversity, equity and inclusion! If you have depression, it's fucking over... it's over! Fucking kill yourself, nobody will care outside your family. They will laugh about you, tell you were weird, a pathetic loner, but you will be dead so who cares... they will keep talking shit about you, nothing will change, you will not be remembered fondly. There is nothing glamorous about killing yourself, it's a selfish act and nobody will give a shit. They will laugh about you, in death like they did when you were alive.

It's fucking over. Humanity is fucked, nobody will ever care, you will be alone, cope, pay for counseling, that's all you have. Take meds, that will surely help. When having someone world surely help, but you have nobody, because you're weird, because you're sad, because you're not smiling... Thats how it is, nobody gives a shit, so buy pills and pay a "professional" who doesn't give a fuck, so you have someone to talk to... FUCK IT ALL! Why do I have to pay to get someone to listen to me... it's so unfair. Not that it matters, I have nothing interesting to say.

I don't care anymore. I am self destructing through isolation and excessive drinking. When I feel like I'm done, I'll take the SN.

Fuck this shitty human world, I am nearly 40 years old, and every year is worse than the year before, humanity keeps getting worse, and I am fucking done. I have no energy, no drive, no hope, all I have is the bottle, nobody listens to me, nobody cares, nothing matters. There is nothing left. It's fucking over.

I relate as well. 32. Depression agoraohobia and panic attacks. When i try to talk emotionally about how i feel my family says "uhhhh i dont want to talk about that. Get a therapist /counselor"
But when they go through a break up ir any traumatic event, I was like the loyal dog hearing them out for hours throughout my whole teens and twenties. I basically had no identity other than listening and taking care if people (who have mental illness too. Mom and sis)

Its really offensive, this whole "im not your therapist" attitude society has taken on. It's dangerous. I could be homeless eventually with disorders that severely limit my ability to work. No job. Recession almost worse thsn great depression here. No jobs anywhere anyway

So how can you expect me to pay for a therapist

I feel used and angry. Very. Very bitter. Very very skeptical. I realized even my best friend judges me, doesn't listen to how i feel and despite having depression himself, doesn't get why a person doesn't get out of bed and help themselves. Panic c attacks here, i spiral. Talking a mile a minute hyperventilating and needing a calm presence who cares like i do for people. Instead they decide to cut me off or even threatened ti kick me out because my attacks were so awful. And they'd get that way because im being critiqued while they happen so id freak out more realizing nobody understands how to empathize. Wtf happened to this world?!?!

Im an alcoholic. Started with the attacks. I was feeling like my fam and friends would cut me out of their lives if they kept happening (id write kike thirty consecutive texts and they'd judge me and give me snide, absent language).

So whatever. I drink alone. I had quit but i relapsed hard because i feel I've learned how badly my future will be. Cheers (sorry fir bringing my own rant here)