Venting I'm envious on sasu users who can express their thoughts easily

[chaoschuckler]

Sometimes I feel overwhelmed reading walls of text because my expressiveness and communication skills have deteriorated a lot lately. I was never like this before. My personality feels boring now. I used to be really fun. I just don't have the energy to be expressive anymore. How do you all still have such energy and be so funny even during difficult times? I'm jealous on u all jk <3

 

[dhk96]

Same. I can't do anything anymore.

 

[gardenoflonely]

Same. I can't do anything anymore.

Literally. Everything is SO hard

 

[|nobody|]

Some people are more Online than others so text communication of very subjective and personal thoughts comes more naturally, some others are just in a more stimulated place I guess so there's just a flood of words that wanna come out

I'm lurking pretty much all the time and feel pretty similarly to you, though. I also am often just feeling like there isn't a point in really following and documenting and publishing whatever train of thought I've got. There's no intellectual solution to my problem, so what am I doing posting about it to a bunch of people who are also on the ledge? I don't want to encourage anybody to jump, and I don't want to burden people in this position with another person to fail to help

 

[chaoschuckler]

Some people are more Online than others so text communication of very subjective and personal thoughts comes more naturally, some others are just in a more stimulated place I guess so there's just a flood of words that wanna come out

I'm lurking pretty much all the time and feel pretty similarly to you, though. I also am often just feeling like there isn't a point in really following and documenting and publishing whatever train of thought I've got. There's no intellectual solution to my problem, so what am I doing posting about it to a bunch of people who are also on the ledge? I don't want to encourage anybody to jump, and I don't want to burden people in this position with another person to fail to help

I'm jealous of u too

 

[SoverignDreamer97]

I am a people-pleaser, but I cannot please everyone, and can only control the things I can control— which as my mother would say, I cannot bullshit a bullshitter, for "bullshit recognizes bullshit". Therefore, if that makes me a liability, why should I live?

If I die, then I die; though my father, mother, and the whole world forsake me, the Lord will bring me up. (Esther 4:11; Psalm 27:10)

Do not envy what others can do, but rather, do as Suncha Ferriera from the Victus Group would command: "control the things you can control, one step at a time," for whoever has, to them more will be given until they have it abundantly, but those that do not have, even what they think they have will be taken from them. (Matthew 13:12)

 

[bl33ding_heart]

We were briefly friends on discord for a little. And you're a pretty funny guy, and nice to talk to. You don't deserve to suffer or have such a negative view of yourself. Wishing the best for you dude.

 

[Bitterly_Nostalgic]

I can write out walls of text sometimes just because these are feelings and thoughts I've kept to myself for years, and after my most recent mental breakdown I can't fully keep them contained anymore. I'm currently in the process of seeking help with the support of my family, but a lot of these thoughts are things that I'm not quite ready to share with them or a therapist. Plus there are a few things that I will never share with any person in my real life. Anonymously shouting into the void is an easy outlet for me.