Venting i’m done.

[synthcadia]

i think once i come back from china, i'm done.

i have bpd, did, dissociations, and i am so tired of this existence.

the guy i liked blocked me, i feel like i have no future, i feel like a failure, i feel like a loser, i'm so dissociated and emotionless that i can't feel upset.

i want my misery to end.

i'm so sad and tired and nothing brings me joy. i'm not gonna get anywhere with music or being a vtuber. i'm never gonna be able to meet my idols.

i wanna ctb. or something.

i witnessed someone overdose in a video call. i wish i could do that.

i got 410 mgs of prozac. but i think that's a painful way to go.

i'm so tired. i think i am going to just dissociate until i'm done with school, and then get my SN and go with my original plan of 35.

i have nothing going for me.

 

[SVEN]

Prozac isn't too likely to be a successfull method I fear. Projectile vomiting and potential seizures at excessively high administrations seems a more probable outcome, sorry.
Despite being one of the most commonly prescribed SSRIs there's good reason it features so seldom in reported suicide fatalities.

 

[Electra]

I don't think any antidepressant is a good choice for ctb due to its high therapeutic window.

 

[synthcadia]

sorry i'm so late to this but i think you are right

i'm going to save my money for sn when i am back from china