I'm fundamentally unlikable. Other people can't stand me. After a while I'm too annoying for them to deal with. They find me and anything associated with me cringe. I will never be accepted, no metter how much I try.
There are things I will never experience. A relationship, being respected, having friend group. There are invisible barriers all around me. I'm anxious to talk to people because I know I will just make a fool of myself in the end.
I can't change myself. There are limits to how much I can act like normal people and it seems it's just not enough even with full effort.
I can either really learn to accept loneliness or I can kill myself, but there is no middle path. I genuinely don't have that much hope for this. It seems need for connection is something fundamental I can't just bypass.
This just fucking sucks so much. How am I ever supposed to accept it?
There are things I will never experience. A relationship, being respected, having friend group. There are invisible barriers all around me. I'm anxious to talk to people because I know I will just make a fool of myself in the end.
I can't change myself. There are limits to how much I can act like normal people and it seems it's just not enough even with full effort.
I can either really learn to accept loneliness or I can kill myself, but there is no middle path. I genuinely don't have that much hope for this. It seems need for connection is something fundamental I can't just bypass.
This just fucking sucks so much. How am I ever supposed to accept it?
