Venting I'm becoming delusional

[TheHatedOne]

I have decided to lie to myself to gather courage to make the final move (can't say quite what this lie consists of though since it's a bit personal). However, not only do I still have doubts regarding my courage, but I think I'm starting to believe the lie I keep telling myself. I'm starting to believe that I will actually meet that person that was dear to me after I die. I feel like a hypocrite bcecause I judged delusional people a lot throughout my life, yet here I am. I don't know, I try to think that the nothingness theory is the most likely to happen, but I can't help it anymore.

 

[Nightmare Painting]

There's nothing wrong with having hope that there might be some kind of afterlife. Nobody can prove you wrong and only the dead know what comes after. I feel that it's also unlikely but I still like imagining my dog being happy on the other side waiting to see me again.

 

[TheHatedOne]

There's nothing wrong with having hope that there might be some kind of afterlife. Nobody can prove you wrong and only the dead know what comes after. I feel that it's also unlikely but I still like imagining my dog being happy on the other side waiting to see me again.

To think alll this comes part from an unfullfilled desire I had regarding the person I wish I met. I don't know anymore. I'm at crossroads regarding everything.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

If you were delusional, you wouldn't know it.

 

[Lost Magic]

If there is nothing after all this then you won't know anyway. If there is something then you will experience new things and perhaps meet up with people who have passed on already. It's a win, win situation.