Venting I’m back and I can’t figure out why

[Alyatl]

Hellooo it's been a long time. Life was actually really good for a while, so much so that I actually no longer fit the BPD diagnosis criterion and got my bachelors with honours. Supposed to go to law school n shit now but these past few days I've woken up not only feeling as low as I used to but somehow worse and I can't figure out why.

I'm almost mad that I'm back, I'm happy because this place makes me feel way less alone but I thought I was done with it I thought I finally had it all figured out yet now I feel like I'm closer to ctb'ing than ever. I feel so fucking empty I'm devastated at all the progress I've lost.

Just needed to vent and to say hello :(

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. I know that it can be awful when things just get worse. To me, it is terrible how so many things can go wrong in this life. Life really is so disappointing and I understand why you would be so devastated. I wish you relief from your suffering.