i'm actually kinda scared

[sulli]

my anorexia is worsening and i'm suddenly afraid of the chance that it'll take me out
i haven't felt like this in a long time, does this mean i want to live? is this what feeling better is like? much to think about

 

[theslasher]

That fear is your brain's survival mechanism kicking in. Definitely a result of your subconscious mind, even if it's in the very back of your mind, even if it's a very small thought, that fear of your anorexia is a sign that deep down, maybe you do want to live.
Try eating some more whole foods, or non-processed foods with high amounts of fiber in them. Foods that satiate you. Eggs, Avocado Toast, Banana, PB&J, lol whatever floats ur boat. Just try eating those types of healthy foods and see how it effects your mood. And water too, if you don't drink enough water like many people don't then they get severe headaches.

 

[sulli]

That fear is your brain's survival mechanism kicking in. Definitely a result of your subconscious mind, even if it's in the very back of your mind, even if it's a very small thought, that fear of your anorexia is a sign that deep down, maybe you do want to live.
Try eating some more whole foods, or non-processed foods with high amounts of fiber in them. Foods that satiate you. Eggs, Avocado Toast, Banana, PB&J, lol whatever floats ur boat. Just try eating those types of healthy foods and see how it effects your mood. And water too, if you don't drink enough water like many people don't then they get severe headaches.

i went shopping earlier today (why is food so outrageously expensive right now omg) and bought some things like that so i'll definitely be trying. also your username makes me giggle spongebob is a major comfort to me even at my big age. it takes me back to a time when i had so much hope for the future and didn't even realize it

 

[sulli]

i am so hungry i could gnaw off my right hand

 

[cami]

please stay safe my love, i know it's hard but we do care about you <3

 

[sulli]

i think ima pass out soon i can't eat at all

 

[SoftWorries]

I read the book Milk Fed yesterday. I thought it was pretty lovely. Maybe check it out? Definitely targeted a lot of my thoughts and feelings connected to my ED.