I’m 25 today

[tmcglone25]

I know I'm young but I feel like a failure. I wrote a novel and recorded some music, and this might sound arrogant but I've never made a bad song, but I also dropped out of college, community college, and trade school. I'm on disability now. I want to CTB ASAP but I'm afraid of death. I'm afraid of what it feels like to not exist. Sometimes I feel like existing in constant pain is better than dying. Am I wrong?

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Happy birthday bro

 

[Eren]

Happy Birthday!

I am also 25 years old and I also feel like a failure, maybe not so much professionally but personally, I am destined to be alone and although I am young, I feel that I will always be like this.

 

[On Edge]

I know I'm young but I feel like a failure. I wrote a novel and recorded some music, and this might sound arrogant but I've never made a bad song, but I also dropped out of college, community college, and trade school. I'm on disability now. I want to CTB ASAP but I'm afraid of death. I'm afraid of what it feels like to not exist. Sometimes I feel like existing in constant pain is better than dying. Am I wrong?

imo death is better than constant pain, especially mental pain.

 

[suicidebabyseal]

Happy birthday, friend.

I will be 25 soon too. I'm scared of that age because I used to think I would ctb at that time. I dropped of college 4 times amd still feel like I would drop again if it gives me too much anxiety. I feel like a failure too.

 

[Heavy]

Disabillity? Whats that. Are you in a wheelchair? (If I mind asking)

Not existing is just like it was before you were born. Nothingness.

 

[Starflow11]

Wishing you peace & stillness today. <3

 

[tmcglone25]

Disabillity? Whats that. Are you in a wheelchair? (If I mind asking)

Not existing is just like it was before you were born. Nothingness.

It's a direct monthly payment from the government that you can get if you qualify for it. I don't make much but it definitely helps.

 

[IwishIwasAttractive]

im 25 too. I don't feel like an adult. I still feel like a child with autism.

 

[Misery99]

Wishing you a happy birthday!

I'm 26 and you have done a lot of things than me.There's no disability benefits where I live. No help from government or anyone.In my case it feels as not existing is better than constant mental suffering I have to endure.

 

[Ἡγησίας]

Happy birthday!

I turned 41 yesterday (on disability too) and I'm still alive for some reasons I wouldn't be able to clarify. Let's try to not suffer more than necessary while we're here. Hugs.

 

[SpottedPanda]

Sorry I read this thread earlier but overlooked the title. Congrats on making it to 25. I hope your day is as good as it possibly can be

 

[lostangel]

Happy birthday. What music do you make? Like genre.

 

[tmcglone25]

Happy birthday. What music do you make? Like genre.

Rock

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

Happy birthday friend

 

[WitheringAway]

I know I'm young but I feel like a failure. I wrote a novel and recorded some music, and this might sound arrogant but I've never made a bad song, but I also dropped out of college, community college, and trade school. I'm on disability now. I want to CTB ASAP but I'm afraid of death. I'm afraid of what it feels like to not exist. Sometimes I feel like existing in constant pain is better than dying. Am I wrong?

Happy birthday. Care to share your music?

 

[Hopeindeath!]

Happy Birthday!

 

[Deleted member 19276]

Happy 25th Birthday! :)

I wouldn't say you are wrong with the last part of your message. But again, it all depends on many things, some that are constantly out of our control.
Despite the bad circumstances, I would say you should try to have a good day. I am sure the music you've made is pretty cool too.
The fears you are having are natural too, don't feel bad or guilt over any of that. Once more, wishing a very peaceful and happy Birthday!

 

[Luchs]

I know I'm young but I feel like a failure. I wrote a novel and recorded some music, and this might sound arrogant but I've never made a bad song, but I also dropped out of college, community college, and trade school. I'm on disability now. I want to CTB ASAP but I'm afraid of death. I'm afraid of what it feels like to not exist. Sometimes I feel like existing in constant pain is better than dying. Am I wrong?

You are basically a slightly older me that actually did the things I want to do. Fuck, do I feel useless.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Happy birthday!! Hope you can enjoy it

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Happy Birthday

 

[HappyMstake]

Happy Birthday. I'm 25 as well and seeing the stuff that you've accomplished makes me feel like even more of a failure.

 

[K-O]

MAZAL-TOV
@tmcglone25 and @Mainlænder x
that means good luck with your journey! what ever your path maybe! x
(it would be lovely if you would share your music with us btw) x Rock on! x

 

[Lostandfound7]

☆☆HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY BOY/BABY GIRL!!☆☆

I'll have a wine cooler just for u!!♡♡♡

 

[TheRaul95]

HB :)

 

[sourcreamonion]

Happy Birthday!

 

[WinterFaust]

Happy Birthday! I'm sorry you're struggling like this. I'm 26 and I can relate.

 

[Bct]

Happy birthday! I'm around 26 yet accomplished nothing. Regarding your question, it depends on each person. For me, it's better to die than livingly in a constant pain. I'll feel nothing but at least I'll suffer no more.

 

[Realityisawful]

Instead of wishing you "happy birthday", I will say "condolences". Typically, your 20s are the most important decade, it lays the foundation for your life (social and romantic relationships, how you adapt to the world and the people around you) and for it to be wasted in isolation because of things out of your control can have seriously devastating effects. A lifelong scar. I think this is a great reason for suicide. It's why I'm CTB. I turn 26 in a couple of weeks and I predict that I will become more active in planning my death, I have an idea for a cocktail, but it's not well-written yet. I've been too depressed to do anything for the past few months, so much so I have been tired and desensitized to my emotions, but as I get closer to my birthday, that feeling is starting to turn into regret and despair that I can feel. Wasting my relative youth without meaningful experiences I can hold on to forever has always been a fear of mine, and it has come to fruition. Amazing suicide motivation, and I hope to capitalize on it soon. I am sorry you have gone through it too.

 

[Soul]

~*Happy Birthday!*~
You sound real far from a failure to me, and if living with/despite pain makes sense to you, it's absolutely a choice you can make. Lots of people have, including lots of geniuses.

It's also a choice you can change your mind about later, if you're ever inclined to.

So rock on! And happy birthday x