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May 1, 2025
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im planning to do it via partial suspension with a belt. i haven't tested it out and im not sure how it'll go. i havent written much, i wanted to write suicide notes to everyone in my life but ive realized i dont really care what happens after my death. once im dead, ill never have to experience that pain again. i don't feel afraid, i feel like i should. i feel like i've been waiting to die my entire life. i've realized recently i don't care about the future, life is a struggle and i'm only happy in my dreams. i think before, when i thought about suicide, i still had things in life i looked forward to. now theres nothing at all. i didn't spend much time on this website but it changed the course of my life. ill also update if it's a successful attempt or not. i wish i experienced more... goodbye!
 
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NihilDoll

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Apr 11, 2026
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I wish you all the best, however that may look like for you <3
Godspeed!
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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Good luck! I hope you find peace :heart:
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find peace.
 
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PanaxMan

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Apr 11, 2023
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im planning to do it via partial suspension with a belt. i haven't tested it out and im not sure how it'll go. i havent written much, i wanted to write suicide notes to everyone in my life but ive realized i dont really care what happens after my death. once im dead, ill never have to experience that pain again. i don't feel afraid, i feel like i should. i feel like i've been waiting to die my entire life. i've realized recently i don't care about the future, life is a struggle and i'm only happy in my dreams. i think before, when i thought about suicide, i still had things in life i looked forward to. now theres nothing at all. i didn't spend much time on this website but it changed the course of my life. ill also update if it's a successful attempt or not. i wish i experienced more... goodbye!
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DT11

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Apr 13, 2026
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im planning to do it via partial suspension with a belt. i haven't tested it out and im not sure how it'll go. i havent written much, i wanted to write suicide notes to everyone in my life but ive realized i dont really care what happens after my death. once im dead, ill never have to experience that pain again. i don't feel afraid, i feel like i should. i feel like i've been waiting to die my entire life. i've realized recently i don't care about the future, life is a struggle and i'm only happy in my dreams. i think before, when i thought about suicide, i still had things in life i looked forward to. now theres nothing at all. i didn't spend much time on this website but it changed the course of my life. ill also update if it's a successful attempt or not. i wish i experienced more... goodbye!
Whatever the consequence may be, hopefully you'll find peace either in the world of living or death. Just don't let it be painful. Godspeed kind stranger.
 
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Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
212
ill also update if it's a successful attempt or not. i wish i experienced more... goodbye!
the dreams will become your reality. let your soul find the peace you deserve and need

do an update regardless. maybe we can finnally get an answer what the afterlife is (joke) 🤡
 
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darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
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good luck,
I hope everything goes well for you and you find the peace you desire ❤️‍🩹
 

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