Discussion if you want to kill yourself, why?

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I find the question "Why do parents bring a new life into this miserable world knowing what it's like?" more interesting to be honest (respectfully) because I really don't get it
I personally want to die because I never asked for this, I never liked it here, plus I'm very lucky to have gotten the mental disorder bingo which makes everything ×2 harder, the world is also an excruciatingly boring place but that could just be my ADHD talking, also the world is chaotic and unpredictable and no one can avoid some form of suffering in their life, either way I just don't see anything worth living surviving for. All existence has to offer me is higher grocery and rent prices and I see people have to work 2-3 jobs just to keep surviving and I can't be more exited about the potential future
I really despise the system that people have built

There's a quote "It will happen to all of us, that at some point you get tapped on the shoulder and told, not just that the party's over, but slightly worse: the party's going on — but you have to leave. And it's going on without you. That's the reflection that I think most upsets people about their demise. All right, then, because it might make us feel better, let's pretend the opposite. Instead, you'll get tapped on the shoulder and told, Great news: this party's going on forever — and you can't leave. You've got to stay; the boss says so. And he also insists that you have a good time."
Thanks for the suffering, but this world's party sucks so I genuinely feel like leaving

 

[chainsofjudecca]

Trauma and abuse has utterly destroyed my chance of ever having a future. I'm also plagued with chronic pain.

 

[ToTheNeverland]

I'd like to hear other people's stories. We're all in this forum for a reason, anyways (I come back here every time I get that urge/spiral). I want to die because I feel like my life's just been one colossal failure and that things will never get better. I keep trying but at this point I just want to give up already. It's been 5 years since I failed my SN attempt and it's my biggest regret in life. I wish I wasn't such a coward and just went through with it completely then all my problems would've been solved. Hopefully I can get my hands on a gun or SN again (I'm leaning towards the gun because once you shoot there's no waiting period. The waiting period really messed me up for SN)

I spent half my life in the clutches of a heavy, drug-resistant depression that slowly took pieces of me away until there was nothing left. At this point, I don't even remember how it felt like to wake up energetically or look at myself in the mirror without feeling self-contempt. I don't remember how it felt like to love someone. I don't remember how it felt like to actually enjoy the things I did. My life before this feels like a distant dream lived by someone else. I have been in and out of therapy since I was 14, heavily medicated since 17 and I have even taken 9 ECT sessions two years ago. None of it worked, in fact it has only gotten worse. I am 23 now and only reason I held on as long as I did was knowing what it would do to my mother. But that isn't enough anymore.

This is probably my last summer.

 

[thealleycat]

Honestly it's because it's all I've known. I've had so many tragic things happen to me ever since i was young. Ever since I was around 8, I knew that suicide was going to be the way that I would die. I have attempted so many times, i've genuinely lost count. Not to get too religious but for a while i was convinced that God only kept me alive as punishment for my sins. That i was impure and needed to pay for what I had done. That only after i've suffered enough, I'll be able to peacefully join Him in Heaven.

The only reason I haven't fully committed is because I don't feel ready enough yet. It's such a strange feeling but it's one i've lived with my whole life.

 

[RCantCope]

As someone in poverty, I've experienced everything there will ever be to experience considering my economic status, therefore there's literally no reason to stay here any longer. Course that's not my only reason for desperately wanting to die, but it's a big one. Life is boring, agonising and without benefit to me.

 

[whotookmylexapro]

My OCD. My OCD is terminal, there is no cure. I have tried everything and it just keeps getting worse. My life is worthless like this. My OCD makes me so angry and if i am withheld from doing my compulsions, i develop severe apathy and anhedonia. I hate that my mind works like this. But i basically consider it terminal, i wish i could get medically assistance in death and just be over this.

 

[sadpigeon]

i am in constant physical pain, lifelong medical conditions and medical trauma from an early age, extreme ugliness. plus, my country fucking sucks and i'm too poor to escape it

 

[Bblconsumer]

I kinda just thought that there's no real point in living, life sucks, the universe will athropy, everyone will die. Sure my life has personally been bad but I don't really think they impacted my suicidality, I've been suicidal while happy.

So like why not?

 

[unknowngirl]

many things in my personal life but especially because of the evil of humans