If you lived alone do you think you’d be dead by now?

[hmnow]

Yes!!

 

[insectontrial]

I live alone and I'm planning to CTB soon (I have tested out my preferred method, and have come close to not backing out of it and just wanting to let the situation play out). I lived alone between late 2018 to mid 2022 and then lived with my family until late 2025. I attempted to CTB in 2022 towards the end of my previous time living alone, too, so I've personally voted "Don't know" on the basis of this entire situation.

 

[sinnrr-sistrr]

I honestly know a few people who would CTB if they could never live alone (or at least leave their current situation). That was me at my worst too, so I voted no. Living alone made me not CTB.

 

[insectontrial]

I honestly know a few people who would CTB if they could never live alone (or at least leave their current situation). That was me at my worst too, so I voted no. Living alone made me not CTB.

Interesting you say that. I have abusive parents. When I was living with them the thoughts were really strong but I knew I couldn't CTB because of the chance of my younger siblings finding me. One of my greatest fears is losing independence - I have a rare genetic disorder which caused my autism, but is also associated with adult-onset seizures, and cognitive decline starting between the 30s and 40s (I'm currently 26). The thought of having to return to them as my "next of kin" is terrifying. I'm close to my grandparents, who briefly raised me, but I don't think they'll be around for much longer.

 

[instormdrains]

I usually sneak out of my house really late at night for attempts so familly isn't really the problem. I would have a higher frequency of attempts so maybe that would put me under

 

[Topaz111]

Absolutely yes, I despise not being able to live alone.
If I lived alone I wouldn't have to worry about picking the right time to make sure I'm home alone for as long as possible and I wouldn't have to worry if 6-7 hours of not being disturbed will be enough.
If I lived alone I would also be able to practice finding my carotid arteries more and get more comfortable with hanging again by training first and I wouldn't have to worry about them seeing marks on my neck.

 

[Green Destiny]

If I lived alone I'd feel comfortable knowing that I could make an attempt at any point if I wanted. Unfortunately that's never going to happen because it's so dang expensive to live alone anywhere in the U.S.

 

[thelostautistic]

I feel like living alone would be great for my mental health as long as I don't stay isolated. If I'm on my own too much it could make it worse

 

[delinquentsandwich]

if I could go within the comfort of my own home that I've known all my life- I'd be so happy

unfortunately my mother relies on me after my father recently passed
I was planning on going after he did but oh well

my answer is yes though
I will just have to wait a little bit longer I guess

 

[squiddedoutt]

surely yea, less barrier to doing it in so many ways

 

[mars2027]

If I lived alone I'd have way less reasons to CTB.

 

[ihatemybones]

I think moving out would be a net positive on my mental health, especially if it was with a friend.

I think the environment I'm in contributes mostly to the situation in which I find myself.

Of course who's to say anything will get better though. I think in my case it would slightly, but ultimately I'll end up back to where I am now sadly.

Hence I'll vote I don't know.

 

[unluckysadness]

I live alone since 20 years and unfortunately I'm still here. Living alone doesn't mean it's easier to ctb. SI is the same.

 

[nitritegirl]

yes i think i only have not ctb yet because it always depends on if who i live with is sleeping or is not home and i need to calculate time before being found... if i didnt have to do any of that i'd have probably already ctb

 

[TAW122]

Absolutely, and a big part of the reason that I haven't CTB'd yet was due to the lack of circumstance and good timing. I live with parents unfortunately. I've made up my decision years ago, and just keeps being deferred and delayed, but my wish to end my suffering has never wavered, it's just a very long waiting line at the bus stop, but hopefully I'll punch my bus ticket when everything is as ideal as possible.

 

[mikidagreen]

yea before i didnt want my parents coming in to my body, now i dont want my partner to.

 

[meowzers3276]

i moved out of my family home on march 1... managed to find SaSu, method, and plan since that span of time and i plan to execute before my lease changes

 

[thinvy]

I'm not allowed to live alone because I panic and spiral too easily. When I caught covid, I wasn't living alone, but my roommates self isolated in their room and I was alone for the two weeks it took for us all to start feeling okay. It was just me and my cat, and I could feel myself creeping towards the edge. When I broke my leg and only got to see people for brief moments of time because I couldn't drive and I couldn't move much and no one came to see me, I felt so shit that I nearly did off myself a few times. IIRC that was just after I'd joined here, or at least when I started more actively using SS lol.

If I don't regularly go out and see people and interact for at least 20 minutes a day, I will go stir crazy. It only takes a few days of cabin fever before I've convinced myself that the world is evil (dramatically moreso than reality) and that everything and everyone wants me dead and I am an awful being incapable of ever being normal or accepted. Or that the world is actively out to get me. But that's the mental illnesses lol

 

[failedmind]

I told myself I would as soon as I lived alone. I've lived alone 3 years now and I still can't bring myself to do it. Hopefully I can soon

 

[outrider567]

Been alone 1500 days now, feel like I'm already dead

 

[hurts2b]

I live in a house share full of (6 or so) literal strangers. Suburban development planners am I right folks? Hate this place.

Living alone with full privacy and would make me want to die LESS.
A lot less.