If you knew you would become disabled or in chronic pain would you have ctbed?

[hopelessanddisabled]

If someone told me in november 2020 what would have happened to my hearing a month later I would have just straight up killed myself after listening to a few dozen of my favorite albums. What about you guys with life limiting disabilities?

 

[Yiyo123]

I concur... I would have cbt

 

[FarAcrossTheWater]

This question has an obvious answer.

 

[hopelessanddisabled]

This question has an obvious answer.

I mean yeah. Statistically most people who visit this site will probably ctb anyway.

 

[Roseate]

Yes, I definitely would.

 

[BridgeJumper]

I mean
I have a condition of inner ear bones being busted open, it affects 1% of population and theres no treatment except brain surgery so I'm stuck with this shit, and I routinely try to partial myself off a bridge or stab my arteries :)
Definitely would of tapped out if I ever knew







Just please kill me :)

 

[the_final_countdown]

If someone told me in november 2020 what would have happened to my hearing a month later I would have just straight up killed myself after listening to a few dozen of my favorite albums. What about you guys with life limiting disabilities?

Ahhh we're similar.

I wouldn't have killed myself. I would try to avoid the situation entirely so it wouldn't happen.

But you know thinking about the past which you can't change only brings more pain and regret.

I'm trying my best not to think about it since there's nothing I can do about it and it just brings me more pain.

 

[BridgeJumper]

Everyday I remember that I caused my own suffering because the noise injury I put myself in was my fault and I wish I could turn back time

Start over

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I'm healthy and I'm close to killing myself. If I was in bad health I would definitely want to kill myself more, maybe it would push me over the edge. Depending on the disability it could make cingtb way more difficult, so dying before the illness would be great.

 

[Trisolaris]

Some it can push over the edge, do others it may still not be enough. SI is a tough sonovabitch.

 

[JamieD]

I have MS and have been told its progressing and within a year will be in a wheelchair......not waiting around for that.

 

[summers]

I have MS and have been told its progressing and within a year will be in a wheelchair......not waiting around for that.

I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope you get to have some fun before you go.

 

[JamieD]

I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope you get to have some fun before you go.

Thank you. I am currently transitioning to female and never felt happier about that......but at least I can go as me x

 

[summers]

Everyday I remember that I caused my own suffering because the noise injury I put myself in was my fault and I wish I could turn back time

Start over

I don't know what did more damage - going to concerts at a very young age with my mom (no earplugs), working in a loud warehouse for 4 years, or shooting guns a lot with no hearing protection. Oh and using power tools, lawn mowers, motorcycles, cars. It sucks, everything damages your hearing.

 

[Lame Old Duke]

At the time I never even considered it but with all the prescription medication I was on it would have been easy. Even now the doctors aren't sure of the long term side effects of the medication I was on for seven years. But after the loss I have experienced in the last 12 months I can't and don't want to be here much longer.

 

[nasblue]

I don't get the premise of this thread. You can still kill yourself after becoming disabled unless your disability is severe enough to prevent you from doing so. And that doesn't seem to be the case for anyone here.

It would make much more sense if anything to want to warn your younger self so you don't become disabled.

But as someone who is in this situation I understand the immense sense of regret at such infinite suffering being caused unnecessarily.

(All this assuming your disability could have been prevented)

 

[hopelessanddisabled]

I don't get the premise of this thread. You can still kill yourself after becoming disabled unless your disability is severe enough to prevent you from doing so. And that doesn't seem to be the case for anyone here.

It would make much more sense if anything to want to warn your younger self so you don't become disabled.

But as someone who is in this situation I understand the immense sense of regret at such infinite suffering being caused unnecessarily.

(All this assuming your disability could have been prevented)

My disability was disease caused

 

[Celerity]

Absolutely. If I think life able-bodied is bad, I'd hate to see how much I would hate it disabled.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

I am in chronic pain and have been the last few years. Yet I still can't kill myself.

I want to get it over with before I become suddenly disabled or too sick to kill myself.

You never know what kind of sick plans life has in store for you. Young people become disabled and maimed all the time in society. People just never think it will happen to them until the day it does.

 

[amnotreal]

i was suicidal since early childhood. but I only have tried seriously once. mostly it has been fear of failure keeping me from ctb. now it is fear of harming my children. i am chronically ill and in constant pain and i keep going for my kids but on bad days i make sure i have all nessesary supplies at hand for if it gets to be too hard. having the ability to ctb somehow stops me from ctb even with all the pain.