If there was anything that could make you change your mind and decide not to ctb, what would it be?

[Dani Paradox]

For me, I guess it would be love. If I just happened to be lucky enough to meet a girl who loved me despite my situation, then I could see maybe trying to make things work. If she was a single mother it would be even better and I would love her children like my own.

 

[medusa]

For the chronic pain to stop.

 

[throwaway123]

There's only one thing that is holding me back, my fear. There isn't a thing in the world that could make me want to live. I see life as pointless and stupid and there's nothing to change that.

 

[lostinthedream]

nothing, I am complete.

 

[Bringmepeace]

Nothing at all, too many things have happened and too much damage to my own mental health. Even if everything was to magically become perfect the memories and pain would still be too great

 

[Miss clefable]

Nothing

 

[Madrid27]

No mental proproblems

 

[Trashcan]

Getting to restart life and write the script for it. For example, choose what birth order, choose some things about my family, choose how I look, what happens, when and how I'll die, etc. I'd also get to choose this before I was reborn BUT would have no memories of this life once I came into existence.

 

[Dani Paradox]

Getting to restart life and write the script for it. For example, choose what birth order, choose some things about my family, choose how I look, what happens, etc.

That would be awesome!

 

[bag.of.cats]

For me, it's the dysphoria. I hate my body and my face. I wish I wasn't so manly and hideous. If I could wake up and be passable, that would change my mind. Right now, I have no money (for surgeries etc), no help from anyone, no love. I am alone. If only I had atleast those, it would certainly delay my choice.

 

[Phro]

If I could get a do-over on life... No childhood abuse, no mental illness, a close circle of friends, and some better looks.... among other things.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

I just don't want to exist, I'm FUBAR.

 

[Cold]

Me building a time machine to go back in time to when my parents were.. um... "creating" me I guess, and interrupt the act, thus preventing me from ever being born! It would be really awkward, but hey at least I wouldn't have to kill my self.

 

[Mr2004]

^
This. A time machine but not to erase my existence just to make a different decision in 2004. I'd settle for having all memory of it erased though or a memory implanted Inception style. It's unfortunate that whilst the world now resembles a sci fi movie in a lot of ways none of these things are available to me

 

[Madrid27]

We all want a time machine to fix things. Back to the past

 

[Madrid27]

^
This. A time machine but not to erase my existence just to make a different decision in 2004. I'd settle for having all memory of it erased though or a memory implanted Inception style. It's unfortunate that whilst the world now resembles a sci fi movie in a lot of ways none of these things are available to me

I think the same thing every day

 

[skitliv]

Nothing

Same

 

[Mr2004]

We all want a time machine to fix things. Back to the past

Same

Not all of us

 

[bigj75]

We all want a time machine to fix things. Back to the past

this

 

[thetwilightzone]

Nothing at all. I'm even contemplating just giving up and quitting HS. It's too much bullshit. Never asked for any of this.

This life is pointless. I like many others here probably try going on hoping things will get better but you realize this life is too harsh, unfair, cruel, pointless, stupid, pathetic, and useless. In the end, my struggles and desires will all be for nothing.

This is why suicide isn't tragic. Someone said something amazing on city-data.

We think falsely that someone dying at 20 is tragic compared to someone who died at 90 but in 200+ years, those 70 years won't make a difference.

Better to just end it now..

 

[Tiburcio]

Nothing at all. I'm even contemplating just giving up and quitting HS. It's too much bullshit. Never asked for any of this.

This life is pointless. I like many others here probably try going on hoping things will get better but you realize this life is too harsh, unfair, cruel, pointless, stupid, pathetic, and useless. In the end, my struggles and desires were all for nothing.

This is why suicide isn't tragic. Someone said something amazing on city-data.

We think falsely that someone dying at 20 is tragic compared to someone who died at 90 but in 200+ years, those 70 years won't make a difference.

He said wise words.

 

[Mr2004]

Nothing at all. I'm even contemplating just giving up and quitting HS. It's too much bullshit. Never asked for any of this.

This life is pointless. I like many others here probably try going on hoping things will get better but you realize this life is too harsh, unfair, cruel, pointless, stupid, pathetic, and useless. In the end, my struggles and desires will all be for nothing.

This is why suicide isn't tragic. Someone said something amazing on city-data.

We think falsely that someone dying at 20 is tragic compared to someone who died at 90 but in 200+ years, those 70 years won't make a difference.

Better to just end it now..

How old are you? I'm 32 and thinking it would be the smart thing to do but it is kind of tragic. Tragic there's no going back, you get one shot and if you fuck it up that's it. Tragic you've got to live with it until your times up or end it prematurely

 

[Laggy]

If I was a perfect person, totally healthy physically and mentally, hardworking, intelligent, creative, beautiful, without any addictions or bad habits, would I still desperately want to die? There's no way to find out.

 

[handicapped]

Just having a normal body to physically do normal things everyday instead of being a burden. I was never suicidal until my accident

 

[lv-gras]

Just having a normal body to physically do normal things everyday instead of being a burden. I was never suicidal until my accident

not to say anything directly about you, more of a tangent.

but this kind of thing makes wish everyone could try out all or any assistive technology they wanted for free

 

[bigj75]

Just having a normal body to physically do normal things everyday instead of being a burden. I was never suicidal until my accident

same with me. My accident made all the dreams and goals I had planned impossible. Now I just can't stand living without the ability to accomplish things anymore.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

If I were already in an Urn … ;)

 

[WrongWayGoBack]

If she has a miscarriage, I would keep going a few mire years until I fucked up again.

 

[CantGoOn]

For me, I guess it would be love. If I just happened to be lucky enough to meet a girl who loved me despite my situation, then I could see maybe trying to make things work. If she was a single mother it would be even better and I would love her children like my own.

The same, at least temporarily postpone.

 

[TAW122]

There currently isn't anything that will change my mind. I've already made up my mind due to the unfixable problems (social, financial, existential, situational, philosophical, and personal ones). One of the problems that I know that I can't change or do a damn thing to effect is that life itself is unfair and I'm sick and tired of being always the laughing stock, the scapegoat, the whipping post, you name it. Also, I have Aspergers coupled with social anxiety which affects my day to day life as well as trying to find and keep a job. This results in financial issues.

However, there is one thing that I can control (if I have the reliable method, the means, and opportunity to go through) is when I die and on my own terms. As of now, there is no doubt that I will die by my own hands, but a matter of when. All it takes is a catalyst, a really shitty event or incident IRL to push me over the edge and finally get me to go through with it.