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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,170
If I had a magic wand to make anything happen... I'd choose to have an intravenous infusion of Nembutal. I have no more dreams... I just want to die...

Even if i have pleasure in life...not enought...
 
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SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
239
I thought that this would be a funny post.

Hmm... if I have a magic wand, I'd hope to just have a heart attack in my sleep and be gone forever. Nothing needed.
 
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hahahahhkjsk

hahahahhkjsk

burden of senses
Apr 17, 2026
26
if i had a magic wand, id first make sure that my loved ones could use it, to help themselves. if they need money, they will get money, but i wouldn't want them to use it irresponsibly. enough money for the situation but not to become a billionaire. moderate magic basically, help them without corrupting them.

and then once that's established, id first erase myself from everyone's memory, so there's no evidence of me ever existing. and then with a flick of a wrist, id make myself disappear, like i had never existed. nothing too fancy or dramatic
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,170
Je pensais que ce serait un post drôle.

Hmm... si j'avais une baguette magique, j'aimerais bien faire une crise cardiaque pendant mon sommeil et disparaître à jamais. Plus besoin de rien.
EXACTLY SAME
 
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SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
239
EXACTLY SAME
Bro I was like thinking and rethinking about your username and now that I know that you're French, I don't know whether to laugh or cry with you because with my limited understanding and vocabulary, it means to de-window, like extracting yourself from the window (jumping out of it)

lmaooo pardon me for my illiteracy in your language.
 
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purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
345
I have to admit

If I had a magic wand I would just stop the feeling that makes me feel terrible.
I would rip out my psychotic brain and replace it in it's entirety.

Why die, when you can stop the suffering?
 
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hahahahhkjsk

hahahahhkjsk

burden of senses
Apr 17, 2026
26
I have to admit

If I had a magic wand I would just stop the feeling that makes me feel terrible.
I would rip out my psychotic brain and replace it in it's entirety.

Why die, when you can stop the suffering?
...
you make an amazing point. fuck. id just... delete this thing and live a normal life. true. right
 
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purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
345
...
you make an amazing point. fuck. id just... delete this thing and live a normal life. true. right
Exactly that :>

I don't necessarily want to die.
I need to die, because it is unbearable to be me.

If I can fully eradicate said need there no longer is a reason to go anymore :>
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,170
Bro I was like thinking and rethinking about your username and now that I know that you're French, I don't know whether to laugh or cry with you because with my limited understanding and vocabulary, it means to de-window, like extracting yourself from the window (jumping out of it)

lmaooo pardon me for my illiteracy in your language.
Yes im french...yes death by jump
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,144
I just wish and hope for the same, all I want is to cease existing peacefully and never suffer in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence ever again, I just want peace from the torture of existing. I'll always see existence as the most terrible, dreadful mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I always suffer so much from being so cruelly denied the option to painlessly cease existing, it's such a terrible crime to me how humans force others to suffer in this horrific world.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,170
Je souhaite et j'espère simplement la même chose. Tout ce que je veux, c'est cesser d'exister paisiblement et ne plus jamais souffrir dans cette existence terrible, cruelle et torturante. Je veux juste la paix, la fin de ce supplice qu'est l'existence. Je verrai toujours l'existence comme la plus terrible des erreurs, la source de tant de mal et de souffrance, sans limite quant à l'intensité des tortures. Je souffre terriblement d'être si cruellement privé de la possibilité de mourir sans douleur. C'est un crime abominable, à mes yeux, que de voir comment les humains forcent les autres à souffrir dans ce monde horrible.
Yes its this...suffering
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,170
Death in my sleep please
 
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tomame

tomame

forlorn 💔
Dec 28, 2025
111
if i had a magic wand i'd wish to not have been born at all 🌬️🍃✨
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,765
images
 
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sadbh

sadbh

Student
Apr 4, 2026
159
I'd eliminate capitalism. Maybe make people pass a test before they're allowed to become parents.
 
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inconclusivesorbet

On my way
Jan 28, 2026
104
I would go back to the past a few years and work harder to preserve my relationships id go back to 2020 and start from there 2019 even
Unfortunately I can shit in one hand and wish in the other and only the former will happen.
 
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u_unoriginal

u_unoriginal

Member
Apr 12, 2026
5
If I had a magic wand to make anything happen... I'd choose to have an intravenous infusion of Nembutal. I have no more dreams... I just want to die...

Even if i have pleasure in life...not enought...
I always hate this question from therapists like when they ask "if you could wave a magic wand and change one thing what would it be" and I know what they're hinting at is trying to figure out what we should be working towards but the only answer I can ever come up with is "a new brain" and how tf do you fix that, your brain is your brain there's only so much talking therapy can do
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,659
I'd ask for a second chance. I see what to do now. I was a fool before. I'd love to live life correctly this time.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,170
Yes, it's true that the question is a bit silly. Personally, I'd teleport to 2090 to be dead...
 
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Black Sheep One

Black Sheep One

Student
Mar 4, 2023
106
I wish for a simple noise. Something simple to prevent my parents from conceiving me. No conception, no me. A condom would be a great choice as well.
I wish to die before the age of 3. I would not be self aware yet.
I wish to achieve an unconscious state and die in that state. If this can be achieved while sleeping, all the better.
 
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