There's been some people who have talked me out of it,
However I am just curious to know, what's an easy and painless way to do it? I am kinda on the fence. I was thinking hanging and leaving a warning so someone appropriate can gather my body. I don't want to traumatize people around me - I know it wouldn't be easy for someone to collect my body. But I'd rather have a professional do it.
I am still early 20s, dropped out of uni, lost a lot of people. Got into drugs, running out of savings. No family - kicked my ass out and disowned me. A lot of people pissed - I think I might be on the spectrum or some shit, I just come off "wrong" socially. I don't honestly know. But a lot of hate, it hurts. The whole childhood trauma and abuse, the ilk. Been hated my entire life, I just feel isolated and lonely. I havent "cared" or progressed or built a good life, as an adult.
But if I want this easy option to leave things for my friends, like have an exit plan. Then I want to make that incase that happens too. I was thinking a timed note, who to give my savings to. Apologizing because I am just hurting, I caused a huge mess, my reputation is tarnished and the hate is inevitable. That theres so much "damage" and distortion with mental illness blah blah blah. What to do with my body, ways to remember me.
However I am just curious to know, what's an easy and painless way to do it? I am kinda on the fence. I was thinking hanging and leaving a warning so someone appropriate can gather my body. I don't want to traumatize people around me - I know it wouldn't be easy for someone to collect my body. But I'd rather have a professional do it.
I am still early 20s, dropped out of uni, lost a lot of people. Got into drugs, running out of savings. No family - kicked my ass out and disowned me. A lot of people pissed - I think I might be on the spectrum or some shit, I just come off "wrong" socially. I don't honestly know. But a lot of hate, it hurts. The whole childhood trauma and abuse, the ilk. Been hated my entire life, I just feel isolated and lonely. I havent "cared" or progressed or built a good life, as an adult.
But if I want this easy option to leave things for my friends, like have an exit plan. Then I want to make that incase that happens too. I was thinking a timed note, who to give my savings to. Apologizing because I am just hurting, I caused a huge mess, my reputation is tarnished and the hate is inevitable. That theres so much "damage" and distortion with mental illness blah blah blah. What to do with my body, ways to remember me.
