idk ?

[abruptum]

Its been a while since ive been on here, ive been doing well and im really having a great time in college. but really each day i wake up and it doesnt change the fact that i really still dont wish to be here. its hard because of the connections ive made to still not realize the point in my existence and be so accepting and even welcoming of death. i feel horribly numb to the feeling and its so hard to live with knowing i have things for myself.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like no matter what happened to me, I would still want non existence. Nothing would ever make me want to live. I'm sorry you are going through this. I wish you the best.