While I haven't been writing here for the past weeks, this week has been the craziest of all... Because I in mid-Sept I finally finished sweeping the floor and using wet wipes, and then ca. Sept 20 I took a shower, and then was ready to set up my first gaming PC since 2002! Ofc it had already been built (by my mom's schizo friend), but it still took me tremendous effort (like spending 1.5 hr. on trying to mount the monitor on a stand - apparently, I was missing the other two holes...).
In the end, I almost fucking died multiple times (carrying the monitor in my tiny apartment 3-4 times, I managed to SCRAPE the fucking wall on my 3d run... but thankfully, the monitor proved stronger than the shitty wall, imagine).
A few days later I even cleaned the bathroom floor for the first time ever because I actually care about my PC and don't want the dust ever to clog it. Yes, PC to me is like a gf that I will never have. so I put actual care into it.
So far, I've been leeching off more money out of my mom to buy another dozen old games like... System Shock (1994; 2023), Crisis Core, Witcher 3, Mass Effect trilogy, SiN Gold (lol), Blood (lmao), Severed Steel (literally 0.3 EUR but so insane), Brigador (haven't played), Gates of Hell Ostfront (supposedly looks like the sickest game ever, strategy where you can control units like in a shooter, also really realistic).
So far, I have lost my proper gaming virginity to a shitty Korean extraction shooter Arena Breakout Infinite. Only to realise that Delta Force is worse, Gray Zone Warfare is dead, and Tarkov is as bad (placing solo players against squads was started by Tarkov, in fact, and not as I was assuming by the shitty cashgrab free Korean games). So in a way, maybe I should continue with ABI because I was genuinely enjoying the gun play.
I have so many games, and I finally got a gaming rig, so while I was saying "2 more years" in the fall of 2023, I'm an infinite procrastinator without much legitimate pressure (aside from house arrest and incel status), so technically I could restart the countdown from now LMAO.
2027 should be the year of either AI singularity waifus, OR nuclear war - either of the two would be exciting.
Oh, and if my style sounds like an eternal noob / child - I don't give a fuck. If it makes me farther from my beloved Nazi Germany and closer to a deranged commie antifa who can't even write like an adult human being, so be it, I don't care.