"I'd like to feel a bit better/ I'd like to recover" Support Group Megathread

[Praestat_Mori]

Unfortunately, this thread became very inactive in recent months.

I just want to find a way to feel safe again. I'm so afraid all the time and have no hope for the future.

I don't even know if I count as "recovering" because I'm only staying alive so I don't transfer my pain to my mom. But I can't see a future of safety or happiness for myself and I don't know how long I'll be able to go on only living for someone else.

The loudest voice in my head all the time is "You are not safe, you will never be safe" and I just want it all to stop. But all I can do is put a bandaid on a gunshot wound by playing youtube videos and podcasts all the time to drown that voice out. Nothing else helps me.

EDIT: uuups idk, it seems I forgot to write what I wanted to say.

Welcome to the Recovery Megathread!

Why do you feel unsafe? What bothers you? Is there sth that is causing this? Can this issue be solved? If you know that you might be able to find a solution. Why don't you have hope for the future?

Someone broke my trust and did it during my lowest, most vulnerable state. I survived it but now I'm experiencing the after effects (anxiety and overanalyzing stuff). I hate experiencing this part of being hurt (enduring the pain). I know I'll get better, but this just sucks lol. I have friends, but I cannot pester them all the time. I try to keep myself distracted. I just hope I could recover quickly this time.

Welcome to the Recovery Megathread!

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Courage and peace. These are the two things I need. Just do my tasks and don't ruminate.

If you've "pulled yourself together," I'd appreciate hearing your story!

 

[Hope;ess Fear]

Unfortunately, this thread became very inactive in recent months.


EDIT: uuups idk, it seems I forgot to write what I wanted to say.

Welcome to the Recovery Megathread!

Why do you feel unsafe? What bothers you? Is there sth that is causing this? Can this issue be solved? If you know that you might be able to find a solution. Why don't you have hope for the future?


Welcome to the Recovery Megathread!

I feel unsafe because I live in a country that thinks I'm a predator for being gay and that I deserve to be executed for being autistic. Unemployment is soaring, healthcare is getting less accessible, costs are rising, and the government is using the military against ordinary people. I don't have a solution for this and can't really fix it on my own.

 

[meemee]

Dropping by after a few weeks. I wouldn't say I'm fully recovered, but I'm much better than how I was weeks ago. So far life has been mundane, but mundane is good. I wish you all guys peace of mind and happiness in the long run. It may or may not get better, but what's important is that you're trying :).

 

[kiwimochii]

I wish I could atleast complete the tasks i have to do. I feel like a failure in life, i see everyone doing their work, getting up in the morning, going to college and I can't help but feel envious. Such seemingly easy tasks for them feel like such mammoth activities. I don't want to drag myself out of bed, i don't want life to be so hard. Why is the mere act of existing so tiring. I'm disappointing myself and the people I care about.

 

[679chocolates]

I wish I could atleast complete the tasks i have to do. I feel like a failure in life, i see everyone doing their work, getting up in the morning, going to college and I can't help but feel envious. Such seemingly easy tasks for them feel like such mammoth activities. I don't want to drag myself out of bed, i don't want life to be so hard. Why is the mere act of existing so tiring. I'm disappointing myself and the people I care about.

existence is tiring, one way i've learned to look at it is many people feel the same way but don't vocalize it like you and me, they just slug on not looking to improve or change, just doing the motions, everyone is tired but life's a marathon not a race, you don't have to feel rushed, as long as you can set small goals and make reasonable attempts towards them you're growing and progressing and that's all that matters. look to be .1% better today then yesterday, sometimes i'm so unmotivated, my body feels impossible to get out of bed and other days i jump right out make a nice breakfast, work out and have a better day with no significant difference between them. i was a neet for a year and im currently a hikki in college and i'm useless and pathetic. i believe in you kiwimochi i believe you're capable of anything and more.

 

[kiwimochii]

existence is tiring, one way i've learned to look at it is many people feel the same way but don't vocalize it like you and me, they just slug on not looking to improve or change, just doing the motions, everyone is tired but life's a marathon not a race, you don't have to feel rushed, as long as you can set small goals and make reasonable attempts towards them you're growing and progressing and that's all that matters. look to be .1% better today then yesterday, sometimes i'm so unmotivated, my body feels impossible to get out of bed and other days i jump right out make a nice breakfast, work out and have a better day with no significant difference between them. i was a neet for a year and im currently a hikki in college and i'm useless and pathetic. i believe in you kiwimochi i believe you're capable of anything and more.

Wow that made me cry thank you for the kind words. I guess the constant setbacks made me so tired that even trying feels like a waste of time. What use is trying if I'll eventually feel terrible? The past 6 months feel like a joke since I was trying and I do believe I was pushing myself to do what I had to, there were times were I couldn't, were i was weak, but even despite it I used to try. What use was that? I don't feel any better. Completing my tasks, going to college, acting as if it's not draining the absolute life out of me, studying everyday as an effort to distract myself. None of it helped in making me feel better. I just feel really let down by life in general. Sorry for the rant
Although I'm not a hikki currently i can see myself slipping bit by bit. I'm still useless and pathetic so that makes two of us. So if you believe in someone like me you can also extend that kindness to yourself. It's a win if life is kind to atleast one of us

 

[679chocolates]

Wow that made me cry thank you for the kind words. I guess the constant setbacks made me so tired that even trying feels like a waste of time. What use is trying if I'll eventually feel terrible? The past 6 months feel like a joke since I was trying and I do believe I was pushing myself to do what I had to, there were times were I couldn't, were i was weak, but even despite it I used to try. What use was that? I don't feel any better. Completing my tasks, going to college, acting as if it's not draining the absolute life out of me, studying everyday as an effort to distract myself. None of it helped in making me feel better. I just feel really let down by life in general. Sorry for the rant
Although I'm not a hikki currently i can see myself slipping bit by bit. I'm still useless and pathetic so that makes two of us. So if you believe in someone like me you can also extend that kindness to yourself. It's a win if life is kind to atleast one of us

i think it's about believing in yourself and gaslighting yourself into thinking that your efforts will pay off in the long run, there's setbacks and suffering in the short run but in the long run when everything is adding up you'll be better off than someone who completely gave up. the mind is very strong but it is ultimately at your will, it's what makes us feel so miserable, at the same time it can make us happy and even motivated it processes the birds chirping and the ice cream you get after a sunny day at the park and your friend hugging you or your lover giving you a compliment. don't force yourself though, it's okay to be sad and cry and not get up in the morning it's okay to do that 3 days in a row let your body rest and your eyes reset . go at your own pace but never give up because future kiwi will thank you, i support you YOU GOT THIS. (say "i got this")

 

[kiwimochii]

i think it's about believing in yourself and gaslighting yourself into thinking that your efforts will pay off in the long run, there's setbacks and suffering in the short run but in the long run when everything is adding up you'll be better off than someone who completely gave up. the mind is very strong but it is ultimately at your will, it's what makes us feel so miserable, at the same time it can make us happy and even motivated it processes the birds chirping and the ice cream you get after a sunny day at the park and your friend hugging you or your lover giving you a compliment. don't force yourself though, it's okay to be sad and cry and not get up in the morning it's okay to do that 3 days in a row let your body rest and your eyes reset . go at your own pace but never give up because future kiwi will thank you, i support you YOU GOT THIS. (say "i got this")

You're too kind. Also are you someone i know irl? Because I've been doing exactly that for 3 days in a row now lol.
I believe I got this? I'll try again tomorrow. Thank you