I would love to live a happy life but my illness is preventing me.

[Ednospatient]

Unlike some people here, I would love to live a happy and care-free life. I have dreams. I have future plans. But my illness is preventing me from doing so. I can't work. I can't study. I have no future but ctb still scares me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. This life is just so unfair. It is always sad to hear about people who want to live but are unable to. It is such a horrible world we live in and to me it is awful how so many different illnesses exist. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[AloneInCollege]

I know what you mean. I have so many things I want to do, I have plans for the future. But I keep reminding myself that they won't happen. I want to do things but I know I can't. I just never have the energy or attention to do productive things.

 

[sharky]

I would too rather live happily and experience things but chronic diseases and also bad luck force me to ctb. What pains me the most are good memories paired with hope. I WANT a somewhat good life , but all odds are against me. Ctb scares me too, but what is that compared to many years of prolonged suffering.

 

[LookingforAnswers]

Agreed wholeheartedly.

I WANT so badly to live a life of joy and adventure again and was doing a great job at it prior to my "illness". Now waking up and even trying to find joy in things feels like a god damn chore. Which is just an awful awful way to live.

I wish it were easy to just want it and be able to implement it but there are obviously changes in the brain that are preventing us all from feeling joy fully

 

[Pain In The Ass]

Unlike some people here, I would love to live a happy and care-free life. I have dreams. I have future plans. But my illness is preventing me from doing so. I can't work. I can't study. I have no future but ctb still scares me.

Same here. I had big plans. I was reaching for the stars, as far as my potential will allow me. But I got fucked over by my shitty body and chronic pain that won't allow any of this to happen, and I can't live with the corpse of my ambitions rotting in front of me. So that's it.

 

[novem]

Same here. My health declined because I am a fool who met manipulative dishonest bad people. I was wearing pink glasses and dreamet of the pink future.