I wish suicide was easier

[here_for_now]

It's so fucking hard to actually kill yourself, everything that is lethal is such a pain in the ass to get and then when you actually get the tools SI is a fucking bitch and you psych yourself out of it

I had enough tools to end my shit multiple times over the years but what did I do i delayed and threw away my freedom

Now my life sucks even harder and my body is failing cause hooray for incurable degenerative diseases and I might even have skin cancer

Like I want to say my life can't possible get worse but I know knowing my unexistent luck it probably will unless I get the courage to fucking just hang myself

 

[pedro3211]

Does getting really drunk help with SI

 

[caotic_realm]

If only it were as easy as pressing a button—or, more realistically, going to a pharmacy, buying strong sleeping pills, and being able to die in your sleep.

 

[Arachno]

I feel you...I don't have the tools on me for the same reason, so the only method I have is by jumping under a train, which I'm still too afraid to do (SI is a fucking bitch as you said), and I've recently realized that even if I had a gun, which is my dream method, I would likely take a long time to finally get the guts to pull the trigger, even if I knew I'm aiming perfectly. And yet you still hear people saying that suicide is the easy way out or an act of cowardice. It is so irritating. It's already enough that we have to put up with our own bodies stupid SI programing, thinking about the impact our suicide could have on our relatives and friends and a large portion of society still keeps this garbage view of suicide.

 

[miekorevvv]

i genuinely relate to what you say its either its hard ti get if the method will bring a peaceful death or its too scary to do if the method looks painful and dangerous i literally concluded that i might never actually manage to kill myself immediatly due to my cowardice so i did what everyone else here does and start smoking heavily this way i make my death sooner and also find a way to self harm (apperantly now i can starve myself much better)

 

[plskilme]

I don't get why god has to be so mercies and take people who want to be alive.

 

[dearlydeparted44]

 

[kitkat9234]

I don't get why god has to be so mercies and take people who want to be alive.

I think about this all the time. You always hear about people dying from illness accident murder etc and they most likely wanted to live. Like why not me instead!!!!!!!!! So fucked up!!!!!!

 

[plskilme]

I think about this all the time. You always hear about people dying from illness accident murder etc and they most likely wanted to live. Like why not me instead!!!!!!!!! So fucked up!!!!!!

My religious friends tell me its because God has a plan for us. I'm currently 27 and am starting to lose faith in him even having a plan...

 

[ivathantri]

The SYSTEM doesn't want it because it hurts their bottom line. Exactly like an up-rising, make it super hard to come together and revolt. The SYSTEM plays both side. They need us to continue slaving, and continuing to make babies so they can continue to feed off us. "You mustn't die, until your time." ~The SYSTEM.

Does getting really drunk help with SI

I guess it would be different for every one, but not for me.

 

[kitkat9234]

My religious friends tell me its because God has a plan for us. I'm currently 27 and am starting to lose faith in him even having a plan...

I ask all the time is this really the fucking plan you have for me!!!!!!!!!! To suffer and just fuck with me!!! I'm about to be 43 fucked up my entire life

 

[cursed4life]

It's so fucking hard to actually kill yourself, everything that is lethal is such a pain in the ass to get and then when you actually get the tools SI is a fucking bitch and you psych yourself out of it

I had enough tools to end my shit multiple times over the years but what did I do i delayed and threw away my freedom

Now my life sucks even harder and my body is failing cause hooray for incurable degenerative diseases and I might even have skin cancer

Like I want to say my life can't possible get worse but I know knowing my unexistent luck it probably will unless I get the courage to fucking just hang myself

me too i wish it was easier
same i wish it was easier

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I know my life will get worse. I am 57f with some genetic physical health issues that could severely debilitate or kill me soon or near future. Dementia is also prevelant in my family. I also suffer from severe major depression. I tried partial hanging last year but it didn't work and it traumatized me a bit having the rope tight around my neck. It is really hard to kill yourself and SI is wicked bitch. I envy the people with the balls to finish the job.

 

[bunnygirl4]

i attempted when i was in middle school, but couldn't get myself to go through with it. i hate myself now for it, i wish i had stuck with it. i don't know if i'll ever be able to, i'm a coward.

 

[pk@2001]

Being suicidal for the past 4 years with neurological issues and with a fucked up body, every day is like a hell.
Sometimes, i wonder what crimes or deeds i did, which forced god or whatever entity who is up there to be so harsh on me.
But, i won't give up unless I have a final go at my dream, then only I can rest and be assured that everything I suffered for wasn't a lie