Venting I wish my family didn't hold me back so badly

[BalthazarIsPathetic]

I've been suicidal for almost all my life, the only thing holding me back from dying is my family. I'd feel so guilty to leave them, but I don't belong here. I'm not sure what to do, but it's been bugging me for a long time. If they found me dead somewhere, im sure they'd feel guilty themselves, that perhaps they could have saved me or something. I've tried what I could, but I think it's about time for me to just let go. I just don't feel right.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

I agree with that. I feel the same way. Wish it was easier

 

[lotus11]

same, I honestly don't even like my family and it still makes me feel guilty enough to stop me

 

[socrates]

I can relate, I have family I don't want to leave. Tho I think caring for a loved one is a reason to live not something holding you back from CTB.