I wish I wasn't such a loser and got my life together.

[catflowers]

It feels like the world is against me I am not sure how to explain it
i just realized that i am a fucking loser
my adult height is 4'9 and i got let off my last job 1 year ago because they said i was like a child and did poor performance at manufacturing and have done nothing since then
my dad said he is kicking me out of the home on september 5th if i don't have a job by then
he also called my life sad
I wish I was a little bit less depressive because even my dad knows about it
I wish that I was dead so bad with sn chemistry
I am the height of an 11 year old at 19 so everyone just laughs at me
i told my mom and she told me to go do it with suicide which didn't help
I am kind of turned on by being my height though because it used to get guy attention from men who were more powerful then i could ever imagine
Also being able to fit in the same clothes I wore in 6th grade really turns me on
People always said I was masculine for a women so it's mostly guys who have that issue so I guess I am

 

[theboy]

Maybe that manufacturing company was not for you but there are more options if you want to work. Physically, well, we're all different. I hope you feel better soon

 

[Nirrend]

Hi @catflowers

I'm sorry to read that you suffer from feedback that harsh and stupid people gave to you..
I understand how horrible it is to be sure to be a looser.. I understand because, people said things like that to me too and, after that, this is an endless spiral.

Stupid people criticizing --> Feeling like things they said is true --> Fail in things we could have succeed --> Stupid people criticizing ...

The pain you're sharing us is legitimate but, do not forget that this is because of this kind og people that you think you are that way.

Even if I don't know you, I'm sure that they are wrong ;) I'm sure that you have talent and that you are skilled in what you like to do.

I know that sound stupid or easy to say, but we love you here <3

Be strong, I understand the pain

May you find peace and love you deserve <3

See you soon !