Always as to suffer in this existence truly is the most terrible, torturous burden that just causes all this harm and suffering and I'll always see it as a mistake to suffer in this existence, for me non-existence is just all that's positive.
For me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from all the suffering and torture in this existence that never should had been imposed and it's just so terrible how this existence was even imposed.
No matter what I'll always see the existence of life as the most terrible, devastating tragedy that just causes all this cruelty, torture and suffering, to me existence will just always be an abomination and I always suffer so much from being trapped in this torturous existence so cruelly denied the option to fall asleep permanently, I find it so horrific how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the agony of old age with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.
Why do you find it necessary to keep repeating the same rhetoric over and over and over again, spewing out the same s**t. You've been on here for 6 years and have over 48,000 posts repeating the same s**t over and over again. It's seems to me like you're trying to brainwash people with your cult like rhetoric and you should be banned in my opinion. It's the likes of you that give this site a bad name, because reading your posts will make people feel even worse about themselves and about life in general than they already do. I don't know what you're game is, or why you're really here, but I personally think your on here for some sick twisted reason. I think you get a kick out of what you're doing, some could argue your posts are preying on the vulnerable, and I think you know full well what you're up to. It seems to me like you're trying to encourage people to end their lives, but you're "trying" to be clever about it by making it seem like it's just how YOU feel about things (so you don't break any rules). But some of us, like myself, are wise enough to see through that and know what you're up. I know, that when a person reads your posts (even if they aren't directly encouraging) that they will plant a seed in that persons head, and (if repeatedly exposed to your posts) could cause that person to start thinking the same way that you do, hence my accusation of your rhetoric being "cult like" and a form of brainwashing, because your posts are literally the definition of them.
I'm honestly astonished that you're still allowed on here. I've not been on here for long, and I obviously don't follow you or go out of my way to look for what you post etc, but every single one of your posts that I have seen is more or less the same. From what I've seen (and again I don't know your post history) you do not make any meaningful contributions to this site whatsoever, you do however, massively taint the reputation of this site and put it's very existence at risk. This is not a site that encourages suicide, but any investigation into this site would hone in on your posts as doing just that, no matter what kind of spin you "try" to put on them.
You've actually been specifically pointed out on social media (well they didn't give your actual user name, so people didn't go searching, but it was blatantly obvious that they were talking about you) because of your rhetoric on here. There was also piece a couple of weeks ago on one of the main U.K. TV news channels, where they were interviewing some parents who'd lost their daughter who'd been a member on here. These parents (and probably the families of others who've been on here) with the help of British MP's are now lobbying for this site to be closed down, and the likes of you, with your rhetoric, are giving them reasons to do so, yes I obviously know there are plenty of other reasons too in the eyes of a "normie" but we need to reduce the reasons as much as practicable possible not add to them. Your posts do absolutely nothing for this site (except take up space) or anything positive for any other member, they just add fuel to the fire. You are giving this site a bad name because any journalist or government officials etc looking into this site and seeing your posts will absolutely without doubt come to the conclusion that this site is encouraging people to take their lives (again, even if your posts are not directed at anyone else). People like you will be a contributing factor to why this site is now blocked in some countries, and why the U.K. government (and probably others) are trying to get this site closed down. In fact, I've actually seen a video on YouTube that specifically says that this site is encouraging people to die because of YOUR posts, they didn't specifically mention your username or the name of this site (for obvious reasons) but they did mention the amount of posts and how long you'd been on here (so it wasn't hard to figure out it was you). It was actually that video that lead me to this site (because prior to that I didn't know a site like this existed) and when I joined here it was obvious to me that they were talking about you. So, if I was able to find this site from a video on YouTube that didn't specifically name it, as well as know that the user they were talking about was you, then I'm sure others can too (including investigators). So, partly because of YOUR posts, there is a video on YouTube that says this site is actively encouraging suicide, not good.
If this was my site you'd have been banned years ago, along with anyone else like you, because you, and people like you, could eventually be responsible for getting this site closed down, and that would be absolutely heartbreaking for almost everyone on here because there is nowhere else (to my knowledge) like this site. So many people on here need this site, without this site things would be much worse for them I'm sure (I certainly feel this way), they depend on it for many reasons, they need a sanctuary where they can share their feelings and their plans with likeminded individuals without fear of being judged, or worse, being locked up and sent to a mental hospital (or something) against their will. If it were any other site then I'd describe it as a "lifesaver", and even though it literally will be for many who become members here, that would be the most ironic statement I've ever made in my life. This site caters for every type of suicidal person, no matter what their reasons for being so are, and is a welcomed home for many of us. I've only been here for a short time and the highlight of my day is being on this site (to read posts, post myself, and talk to others etc). This site means a lot to me, as I'm sure it does for the vast majority of those on here who need someplace like this. You, and your rhetoric, are putting the very existence of a site like this in jeopardy and you should not be allowed to do so.
I've already reported you once when I came across your own thread and couldn't believe my eyes when I seen how many posts you've made repeating exactly the same s**h. The Mod who replied to me (to my bewilderment) basically said that they weren't going to do anything because it "wasn't spilling over into the general discussion", but it obviously it isn't it. Also (in my opinion), it doesn't matter where you posts are, they are on here period and anyone (like myself unfortunately) can come across them. I hope the Mods take everything I've said into account and facilitate the swift removal of you and anyone else preaching the kind of stuff that you do.
I'm probably going to take some heat for this post off anyone who sympathises with you (for whatever reason), but in this case I honestly don't care and will not be responding to anyone who disagrees with me because it needed to be said. The possible consequences of your posts needed to be highlighted, and if you truly care about this site and the longevity of it, along with the other members on here (which from your posts you do not) then you need to have all that s**h delete and actually contribute to this site in a meaningful manner with some constructive posts instead of the toxic rhetoric that you spew out all the time. I'd like to think there are others on here who agree with me and I'd appreciate a simple
if you do. I'm sure many people on here (even the ones who won't publicly acknowledge it) will be pleased that I've called you out on this because it needed to be done.
I've tried to not be rude or offensive here but obviously it's very difficult or impossible to do so in such a case. I shouldn't have even had to make a post like this in the first place because you should have been stopped a long time ago… but here we are.
