i wish i died before i turned cynical

[xXSufferingXx]

it's not nice having people call you cynical simply bc you've been thru so much shit that naturally you can't help but develop that view on the world.
not my fault.
i've been lied to and scammed etc etc.
at this point it would be irresponsible and naive to not be cynical.
but people look at you like an asshole for that.
for something that was done ONTO you by others.
victim shaming.

if i had died 15 years ago, there's many nice things i would have missed in the future,
but even more bad things than nice things, tho.

yet another very rational reasoning for suicide.
i'd prefer to be remembered as the best version of myself, not the one with a heavy heart.

 

[SVEN]

I sometimes think that folk don't know the difference between bitter cynicism and sensible, healthy scepticism. Life makes you much more realistic about peoples' intentions and dependability; to me that's just an absence of naivety and being realistic, not cynical.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

I sometimes think that folk don't know the difference between bitter cynicism and sensible, healthy scepticism. Life makes you much more realistic about peoples' intentions and dependability; to me that's just an absence of naivety and being realistic, not cynical.

exactly yes. humans have an extremist problem. it's always from one extreme to the other, lacking ability to see nuances

 

[bankai]

I agree. I too have become unhealthily cynical. I look at everything with extreme skepticism.It has to do with being cheated a few times, being scammed. I lost some money to friends,etc.I do know, not everyone should be viewed with the same lens. But I can't help it.