I Wish I Didn't Survive My Overdose

[here_for_now]

I'm not a good person, i hurt & disappoint the people i love and i'm the scum of the world. Everyday i wake up i wish i didn't survive my recent overdose, it wasn't even on purpose just tryna ease the pain.

I'm a bad person. Why did i survive, someone else deserved to live not me. I just destroy everything i touch...

 

[c.c]

I'm not a good person, i hurt & disappoint the people i love and i'm the scum of the world. Everyday i wake up i wish i didn't survive my recent overdose, it wasn't even on purpose just tryna ease the pain.

I'm a bad person. Why did i survive, someone else deserved to live not me. I just destroy everything i touch...

I survived my overdose last December and it was hell, aside from the physical pain, sweing people reassuring me that i will be okay( i never told them that i had overdose) i felt extreme guilt and still do. I regret surviving that as well but you are not a bad person until you strategically plan to hurt someone, take advantage of there vulnerability and slowly kill them from inside and not allow them death physically is when you become someone deserving of death ..if you have or feel like you have done something really wrong..apologize at the best you can cuz honestly the only people who do deserve death are murders and rapist not someone who does love other..apologize till they forgive you..make up for what you did wrong and never repeat your mistakes again.. ....you don't deserve death until you do.

 

[here_for_now]

I survived my overdose last December and it was hell, aside from the physical pain, sweing people reassuring me that i will be okay( i never told them that i had overdose) i felt extreme guilt and still do. I regret surviving that as well but you are not a bad person until you strategically plan to hurt someone, take advantage of there vulnerability and slowly kill them from inside and not allow them death physically is when you become someone deserving of death ..if you have or feel like you have done something really wrong..apologize at the best you can cuz honestly the only people who do deserve death are murders and rapist not someone who does love other..apologize till they forgive you..make up for what you did wrong and never repeat your mistakes again.. ....you don't deserve death until you do.

Thank you, i appreciate your kindness

 

[zoezodooks]

Sometimes i feel this way but you gotta remember your not evil, you just made a mistake. your not the bad that you are you shouldn't let it consume you you can always be a better person all you gotta do is be kind. i always thought that the mistakes i made made me worthless and that what they said was true about me, imade myself into a monster without realizing i was a good friend, sister, etc. if you dont have those people in your life then it will happen but people do come and go, my brothers best friend passed away when i was young it really messed me up, he wasn't thinking about me when he did it but i still think about him everyday, someone will notice. all the best, hopefully it will get better.

 

[wantingdignity]

I feel this way sometimes. I didn't mean to either - I was actually trying to numb the pain and self harm instead of dying. I ended up getting even closer later.

Have you tried an outpatient program? They allow you to have the space to process this with people who are going through similar things. It really helped me.

You are not evil. We all have the ability to make choices that are helpful or hurtful. I'm sure you wouldn't think I was evil for overdosing and ending up in the ER. We all have a pain threshold. I'm so sorry you're going through whatever it is that you're going through.