I will soon be ready

[stevieu]

I have the SN and everything else to go with it, ready to shuffle off this mortal coil. Now I just have to come up with a clear regimen and verify all the doses and pick a time.

I'm not sure why I am posting this really, but I guess the closer you get to leaving, the more you just want to find peace with everything.

I never envisaged my life turning out this way; The once hopeful dreams of a little boy transformed into a world of nightmares through adolescence and adulthood. Too much pain, too much trauma and too much suffering - everywhere you look. As much as I want to cling to some life, I equally just want to be at peace - to retreat to nothingness and be free from it all.

This website has been an invaluable safe haven for me - a place like no other to vent, to feel understood and to be accepted. That sentiment especially applies to a dear friend I've made through these forums.

Anyway, it's not quite a goodbye... just yet. I just needed a little release in the meantime.

Peace <3

 

[FuneralCry]

Living is very painful. It really can be a nightmare being alive. More than anything, I also want to be at peace. I want nothing to do with life. I wish you the best, I hope you find freedom from all suffering.

 

[Niirvana]

I feel identified with many things you say, see you soon *hugs*